He truly is my addiction. I should give him up to someone worthy of him. But I can't, I crave his touch when he isn't around, his smile when I'm feeling bad, his laughter when I'm having a bad day. I need the way he can soothe my guilt and fear. The way he can make me laugh even when I feel that I'm about to cry. I need his smile like a flower needs the sun. His smile truly is my sun. I know that I can't keep him, that I have to let him go, but I've decided to be selfish and hold onto him for as long as I possibly can. I know that people don't expect us to last but every night I dream that we will prove them wrong and we will live happily ever after, if only so I can keep my addiction for a little bit longer.