Embracing the Darkness
It takes time to heal the wounds others have inflicted upon us…
There is darkness in everyone. In some there is more than others. It is a dark abyss that takes over your whole being and controls us from the inside out. We get distorted through the pain and misery creating a twisted a demon we call ourselves. It is unlike something you have ever experienced before. Some see the change and wish they could stop it, others, ohh others don't see it. They embrace it believing it's who they really are. They love the new self, a confident rock solid version of yourself, the one with no doubts even though we have it. Their twisted self, inflict pain upon pain and enjoys it. It feeds them. Feeds the emptiness inside. This is the darkness inside each of us. It watches with ever so patient eyes waiting for the moment to jump out and take over you…
Coal… A name me and my demon both respond to… a name of a killer who is dead on the inside… it's funny how anyone could fall for me, a demon. Still it happened. I watched slightly amused as he tried, miserably, to express his feelings. I helped with his plans. The thought of destroying a 'clan's' code and taking over all of their territories interested me or was it my demon? I don't know the difference any more. We both had blood stained claws, many deaths came from our paws. Shadowclaw's, oh sorry Shadowstar's enemies, his superiors, other leaders and simply anyone in his or my way were killed. The clans were falling apart. I knew we were close to victory nothing could stop us.
Once we took care of Silverstar everything would be in place. Shadowstar said once she was gone everything would be as easy as catching a fat lazy rabbit in Greenleaf. Everything would be perfect except… something change. My feelings suddenly changed, my opinions changed, my heart changed... I got over my pain hidden inside. I don't know how to describe it but the never ending hole in my heart was closed and filled with, with I don't know what. A tingling, a heat, no it was an emotion I can't recognize. It doesn't matter, the demon was gone and I felt empty inside. The everlasting hatred, anger, lust for power, the darkness it was all gone. I was the shell of a cat that once was. How could I explain this to Shadowstar a cat still filled with darkness and the Demon?
I sighed and got up shakily. I now know what I had become and what I am now. I'm a feisty, stubborn, confident she-cat who can't redeem herself for all her faults, but will try her best to make up for everything she has done. It's time to get over the darkness it's the dawn of a new day. I will slowly get rid of the rest of the darkness in my heart and help Shadowstar with his.
This… this is my destiny!
There are no second chances for life
AUTHOR NOTE: A ONE SHOT I HAD TO WRITE. I'M EMBARESSED TO SAY BUT FOR MANY YEARS I SUFFERED FROM DEPRESSION AND TRIED TO KEEP IT HIDDEN FROM OTHERS. ON 10/17/11 AROUND 6:00PM I RELEAZED HOW TO GET BETTER. I CAN'T EXPLAIN IT BUT NOW I'M MUCH HAPPIER AND HAD TO DESCRIBE (VERY BADLY IF I SAY SO MYSELF) THE PAIN OF THE DARKNESS WITHIN YOURSELF. THIS IS A ONE SHOT FOR THE SEQUEL OF CLAWS N FANGS DESTRUCTION FOREST (OBVIOUSLY NOT POSTED YET OR ANY TIME SOON) I HOPE YOU ENJOYED AND SORRY FOR THE REALLY LONG AUTHORS NOTE. XP