Renewal
Author's Note:
This is actually quite strange for me, because I had sort of promised myself I would never write a twilight fanfic...Oh well... This is a dedication to Jasper because I love him the most. lol =) I meant for the poem to be quiet, reflective and spiritual... almost...
Alive with this wet dawn,
Soaked in the coolness of morning,
Dappled light, mirrored water,
Reflected shards of brilliance,
I do not know how I came to be here...
perhaps on a sudden whim?
To be near this life-giving river,
to touch the water to my face,
and feel and smell the sensations of morning.
To wash away my past,
To let go of every hate, every fear, every pain...
To immerse myself in this wondrous feeling of being reborn,
Found,
Loved.
For I have never been quite the same,
Since she found me.
Who would have ever thought...?
That I, with dark eyes reflecting hate,
With the scars of the desperate, the innocent,
The cries of thousands ringing in my ears,
Blood, staining crimson on my hands,
Could be loved by someone like her...?
As pure and resplendent as the morning...
I close my eyes against the tears,
Lifting my face to the sky...
I don't deserve her...
I don't deserve this pure, untainted love...
But she sees me,
The real me,
And with her I am suspended,
Transformed,
Lifted so high above the earth,
I do not know myself any longer...
Her smile and her laughter
cleanse each empty and abandoned chamber of my heart...
I lift my face to the pale light of dawn,
tasting the cool, fresh morning,
the misty tendrils of gold that weave through the trees,
the sound of bird calls and the gentle snap of branches,
the flicker of life around me, breathing,
waking...
And as I let this radiant beauty surround me,
wrap me,
enfold me in healing arms,
I let go of my shadows,
My demons,
Every fear and every hurt,
I give them up...
For I have been renewed,
Redeemed,
Restored...
Love has found me and healed me.
I can live my life now, unafraid...
For she will be with me, always.