Waking up to my annoying alarm clock after my somewhat ok Christmas holiday wasn't the best reminder that I have to get up and choose an outfit since the degrassi rules have opened up to actually allow "street clothes".
After spending 3 weeks of Christmas in Glen/Edwards residence stuck in Jakes room because of his grandparents were staying in my room, which to me makes no sense since jakes room is bigger than mine. My whole 'family' shut me out most of the time and when they would talk to me it was jakes grandparents criticizing my every move.
The only thing that actually kept me sane was Ali we were hanging out whenever her new boyfriend was busy. I still haven't told her about the kiss me and Eli shared at the frostival I haven't yet made sense of that problem yet.
"Clare honey its time to get ready for your first day back at school, can you wake up Jake for me please?" my mothers voice broke me from my thoughts.
I get up and brush my hair and I put on my skinny jeans and a flowy top and go into jakes room. As soon as I open the door I hear his dog snores, yeah I don't know how I slept in here before, as I try shaking him up I glance at his clock and its 7:15 that means I have 15 minutes to get on the bus for school, I choose not to go with Jake. Why is jake sleeping like a dead animal I mean he doesn't move I've tried everything so I started jumping on the bed.
"What the fuck are you doing!" Jake yelled as he jumped of the bed like a spring.
"Well I tried waking you up its not my fault you sleep like your dead!" I yelled back at him.
"Its 7:20 why the hell did you wake me up so late? Oh my god I'm gonna be late!"
"You have like 40 minutes left god your such a girl" I yelled as I was walking out of his room I heard him muttering something under his breath but I'm used to it.
As I walked down the stairs I swear I was scarred for life glen and my mom making out on the couch and glens hand was under her shirt.
"Jakes getting ready and I'm gonna go now I don't wanna miss the bus." I said making both of them jump as far apart form each other as they could go.
"Oh honey why don't you ask Jake to give you a ride I'm sure he won't mind." My mum said stuttering slightly.
"I prefer the bus bye!" I said as I walked in the kitchen to get an apple knowing there wont be anything in the fridge. As soon ad I stepped out of the door I was greeted to the cool air with a little fog today was a perfect day in my point of view.
After the longest bus ride ever I finally got to degrassi and I was still one of the first to arrive along with the couples who want to spend a lot of 'quality' time together. As I looked around I Eli and my heart skipped a beat he was breath taking with his usual skinny jeans and the coat he wore to the frostival. He glanced up and we saw each other I nervously walked towards him.
"Hey" I whispered he looked at me his eyes looked guilty and nervous
"Clare I need to say something to yo-" I cut him off.
"Eli if you're going to say the kiss at the frostival was a mistake then we both know that isn't true" I took in a breath I never knew I was holding and continued "I know you felt what I felt as well"
"What about Jake?" he whispered nervously
"Jake? Really Eli Jake? Jake was the rebound from our relationship."
"Clare so many things have changed since we last spoke, before the kiss, im a whole new person." He spoke softly.
"Who said we are the are people Eli we've both changed maybe you more than me but I actually think we could be happy together."
"And how do I know your not just going to leave me at my weakest point." Eli hissed at me but still stayed just above a whisper
"Eli please"
"No Clare I've gone through too much I can't have you hurt me again" and with that he turned around and walked into school. I was glued to the ground unable to move knowing I did this to myself. The tears started falling down my face as I ran I ran to the closest place I could think of: the park. I layed down on a cold bench wishing I had my jacket and Eli to keep me warm I soon drifted into a dreamless sleep.