This is my first death note fiction so please be nice. This is all written from Mats point of view because I love him. But anyway. This was originally called bang the doldrums but I epically failed with the spelling and grammar so this chapter is dedicated to my lovely beta for enduring my ramblings event thought she has no clue on death note or who matt and mello are. Thanks Sable gloom i don't know how you put up with me.

Laid on my Bed, my mudkip just reached level 42, go me! I know Pokémon ruby is and old game but I figured it was time to go old school for a while, every game that was coming out for the DS was educational for fuck sake, and what's the point of an educational game? Like I need it anyway. So I figured lets go back a few years, to the times when games were games, and not educational in any way.

I must have been laid there for quite some time. I could feel my arms starting to go numb as I held my game-boy above my head, so I slowly, never taking my eyes of my current battle, turned over on to my stomach. I reached out to my bedside table and grabbed a lolly, pulling off the plastic wrapper and placing it in my mouth. I smiled as I tasted the sweet orange flavour just as I beat my rival at the current battle.

Quickly looking up from the small screen to look out of my bedroom window, I noticed the sun was lower in the sky, which meant that Mello would be bursting in to remind me to eat then bug me to study with him. I sighed at that thought.

Yet another night studying with Mello. That's all he ever wanted to do.

Me, well, I just couldn't bring myself to care. I mean succeeding L, that would be cool enough, but studying all that time to beat my best friend Mello and that big head Near, it was all far too much effort. I was quite content to sit here in the number three spot and mooch of Mello when he eventually beats Near to number one and succeeds L. Sounds like a plan to me! Mello gets what he wants and I get to do what I want with a super successful best friend to fund my gaming habits. Everyone happy, plus I don't think I could put up with the grief Mello would give me if I surpassed him.

I checked the clock on my bedside table; 6:30. That's weird; dinner was half an hour ago, why hadn't Mello come to remind me to eat? Actually, where was Mello? I looked over to see his laptop sat next to mine on my desk. It had been there for so long that the screen had gone black. I knew Mello had gone out for a bit of a break and to enjoy the sun, but the sun had set ages ago…

I shrugged my shoulders. Who was I to try and figure Mello out? That guy was too complex to understand most days anyway.

I went back to my game, enjoying the music streaming out of my own laptop, humming along to the tracks I knew sometimes even singing along to the ones I really liked.

I heard the turn of the latch in the door frame and I looked back over my shoulder to see Mello stood in the door way.

"Hey Mells" I didn't really need to know who it was. No-one else really talked to me, but I liked it that way anyway. But no one else ever just walked into my room like else knocked first.

Mello stormed over to his laptop slammed the lid shut and began to angrily pull out the wires that connected it to my own and the socket on the wall.

I pushed myself up on to my knees and watched Mello as he tried to untangle the wires; he was growling angrily and just tugging at them not even trying to untangle them from one another. I paused the game and shut the lid on the advance and let it fall to the bed.

Something had upset him. Well that was plain to see, but what? Mello almost never removed his laptop from my room, knowing that I would look after it better than he would.

"Mello? What's the matter?" I slowly got up and walked toward my friend and began to untangle the wires for him. He scowled at me as I easily disentangled his laptop from my own and he quickly picked it up and threw in the bag at his side.

He stood up and looked down at me in my crouched position on the floor,

"I'm leaving..."

"What? Why?" I stood up slowly, putting myself at his level. This place was everything to Mello, he'd been here longer than I had. This was everything. His pathway to becoming L. he had never spoken of leaving before, what could have happened in the 4 hours I hadn't seen him to suddenly make him leave?

"L....Kira killed him. L's dead matt" This wasn't the Mello I knew. This wasn't my best friend. His voice was so....well…calm, and let's just say that Mello's name is kind of ironic.

I couldn't believe it, L dead...I felt my stomach twist. L was dead, but how? But wait...that meant…

"Who did he pick, who did L pick?"

"No one."

"What but..."

"And he never can now he's dead. Rodger suggested that me and Near work together to try and bring down Kira, but I turned him down. I wouldn't work with that fat-head ever! Even if it does mean I get to carry on the L legacy, I'm only gaining half of that legacy, and I don't want that so I let Near take it. I'll find away to take down Kira myself."

I processed all this quickly. L dead + no successor = Mello leaving = not good.

"I'm coming with," I quickly turned round scanning my bedroom for my bag.

"No you're not..."

I turned back round to look Mello in the eye.

"What do you mean no I'm not? It's my decision Mello, and I'm coming with you!"

"Matt, it's not safe for you to come with me yet. I'm leaving now and I'm going to set shit up for us. A place to stay, connections, everything we need to live and to take down that psycho! Matt I can't have you coming with me, not yet. Plus I need you to stay here keep an eye on Near for me. You're the only person who can hack his system! I know he' s going to stay here and use this place as base for a while, so I need you here to watch him and get as much info on the Kira case as you can."

He turned and leaned over the desk and wrote something on a scrap of paper, turned back round and folded it over and handed it to me.

"This is where I want you to meet me, in eighteen months time, you got that?"

I looked him in the eye and held my end of the paper he still hadn't let go of it "Yeah I got it, but why eighteen months?"

"Because eighteen months gives me enough time to get in where I need to be and get everything set up and get comfortable, so no earlier got that?"

"Yeah, I guess." I never really questioned Mello I knew that he thought he was doing the right thing, and well, if Mello thought that it was probably right, so I'd follow him to where ever it was he was going.

With that Mello let go of his half of the paper and busied himself making sure he had left nothing in my room that he would need.

I just stared. This was a lot to happen in 10 fucking minutes. L is dead and my best friend is going to fuck knows where, and I have to stay here and watch Near for him. This deal sucked on my part, that's for sure.

I felt a tug on my hand and saw Mello taken the forgotten wires and place them in his bag.

I just stared, so this is what shock feels like...interesting.

"I'm going to miss you Mells"

He looked up at me. I could see so many emotions in his eyes right now. It was hard to determine what was really there, and usually Mello was as easy to read as my game boy screen.

He just stared at me for the longest time

"I'll miss you too Matti" he then reached up on his toes closed his eyes and softly brushed his lips against mine. I didn't know how to respond, so I just followed his lead. But as quickly as his lips had met mine they were gone and before I realised it so was he.

I stood there for the longest time just staring. I lifted my fingers up to touch my lips. I could feel them tingling from where Mello had kissed me.

Wait! Mello had kissed me! I didn't know what to make of that… I'd never thought of Mello in that way before, I mean, he was always just…Mello. My slightly crazy, over emotional best friend. That was it. Who would have thought my best friend would have been the one to get my first kiss...

I smiled at the thought.

For the first time, I couldn't figure something out. This was strange for me, because I was always able to work things out easily, but right now my brain just wouldn't function. L is dead, Mello kissed me and now he's gone. It didn't make sense. Well, I guess I have eighteen months to think about things. Right now Mello had left me with orders, and that begins with hacking Near's system.

This was going to be a long, lonely eighteen months.