Hey, I'm alive! Yeah, sorry I haven't written in a while. Inspiration and I got into a fight, and we haven't been talking till recently.
But I wanted to write something edgy, something that dealt with a very real problem that plagues high school students around the world.
The song is "How Do You Get That Lonely" By Blaine Larson. It was what caused the rift between Inspiration and I to evaporate. So yes, we are cool now.
I hope you like this story. I've decided to write a lot of one chappies like this, explaining what happened, then getting into the story. It's a lot easier for me, cuz then I don't feel obligated to continue a lost thought. LOL.
So, I present to you
Broken Home, All Alone.
A Harry Potter Suicide Fic.
It was just another story written on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on his bedroom floor
There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him 'neath a stone...
The wizarding world was in utter chaos. The Savior of their world, Harry Potter, had committed a true mortal sin. He had killed himself.
No one knew the true reason behind it, and no one had seen it coming. No one but one Hermione Granger and Sirius Black.
Harry had been fighting depression since 4th year. The cause was Cedric's death. That was when the enormity of the situation hit Harry. He was a afraid to go on, afraid of failure. But he went on, and when Sirius disappeared behind the Veil, he had gone over the edge. He started cutting.
Hermione realized before anyone else. Well, was the only one to realize. But he pushed her out. Told her she had no idea what it was like. Try as she liked, she couldn't make Harry realize what a mistake he was making.
Then came 7th year. Things were looking better. Sirius was found innocent after a sighting of Peter Pettigrew, and though he wasn't there to celebrate, Harry and the rest were, and they honored his name to the best that they could. But it got better: Dumbledore discovered a way to pull wronged souls out of the Veil. So by the time he left Hogwarts, Harry was reunited with his Godfather, the newly requited Sirius Black.
How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know
Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun?
Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol?
Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son?
Did no one see the writing on the wall?
I'm not blamin' anybody, we all do the best we can
I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand…
But things went downhill again. Harry started cutting again, and the cuts got worse. The reason this time was that his two dearest friends, Hermione and Sirius, had found love together, yet Harry himself couldn't find that kind of happiness. He became so bitter; he forced a wedge between him and them, using bitter words to sting them just right.
He and Hermione weren't speaking, and his relationship with Sirius was one of intense anger. Harry hated himself for what he had done to his friends, his family. But he still felt he had no choice.
But living with that self-disappointment is what led him to his decision. He would kill himself.
How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody know
Hermione found him the next morning, bled out, on the kitchen floor of his flat. The images scarred her for life, just like the note he left behind.
He said how sorry he was for screwing up their friendship, how his jealousy of her happiness had been his drowning point. He wished her a long, happy life. And said he would be watching her form where ever you go after you die.
Hermione and Sirius took care of everything. They planned the service, and where he'd be buried, right next to James and Lilly. The hardest thing was saying good-bye, as they both knew that it was truly good-bye. No more joking in the kitchen, no more petty fights, no more anything.
It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score...
Did you like it? I hope so! I had so much fun writing it. I'm thinking up a new fic too.
It's a graduation fic that shows what the Golden Trio were like on their graduation day. And everything else. It's also gonna show the unlikely alliances that form over time. It's gonna be a songfic too, with Graduation (friends forever) by Vitamin C
So, peace out.
XoXrogueXoX