Caught in a Dream

= Most of us have dreams. I have one too. Unfortunately, I can never reach it. Oneshot NxM

I woke up staring at the white ceiling. I could hear a person sleeping beside me. Slowly, I turned my head and gazed at the window near the bed. It was almost twilight. I let my eyes travel to the man next to me. 'He must be really tired.' I thought. I grabbed the diary on the side table and started writing.

The time for me to depart is near

But I don't want to leave this place so dear

I could feel the tears forming in my eyes. Silently, I wept as I asked myself the reasons behind this situation. 'Why do I have to go? Why do I have to leave him all alone? Why do things go wrong when you have reached your happy ending? Why must this happen?!' I mentally cried.

Maybe this is just my fate

That must be done at any rate

"I'm sorry Natsume. I'm truly sorry." I whispered. Carefully, I lifted my hand to caress his face. "Thank you." I said and kissed his head. I felt him stir.

I hope it's not too late to say

My gratitude in my own little way

For the love you have shown,

Is the greatest love I've known

I smiled as I remembered our past. You were always teasing me and I would always get mad. I remember when you first smiled at me. It was faint but I noticed it. I would not let that moment escape. It will always be in my memory. Back then, you always outsmarted me. I found it hard to defeat you or disagree with you. I don't even know how I fell in love with you. Was it because of the way you treated me or the way you've touched my heart?

Remember the times we were together

Those were the moments that would last forever

Everyday was heaven here on earth

I have never felt like that since birth

"Do you still remember when you first said my name? I bet you do." I breathed. You were very annoyed. Your face was very memorable but the thing I couldn't forget is the emotion that I have felt. It was like having butterflies in my stomach. It was when I first realized that I was deeply in love with you.

When you first said my name

A sudden wave of emotion came

Feelings I couldn't explain

Sensations I couldn't contain

I smiled sadly and wiped my tears. "I promise to treasure these memories. I'll always will. I love you, Natsume." 'I guess I was simply caught in a dream, a dream that would never come true.' I thought as wrote down the last words.

So for the last time I had uttered

My love for you that always mattered

Because as the sun slowly started to set

So did all the time in this world that I could get

I looked out of the window for the last time. I could see the stars already. I smiled and slowly laid myself. "Goodbye … Natsume." I whispered as I closed my eyes.

A tear fell from Natsume's eye and his hand clenched tightly.