Jane Shepard leant against a pillar outside a relaxed bar in the lower wards. She was dressed casually in dark blue jeans and a black t-shirt but her expression was anything but casual. Her eyes were fixed on Kaidan Alenko who was sitting in the bar reading a datapad and enjoying his hard earned shore leave. Jane knew that Brooks would be angry with her for being this near to the man, let alone for considering stepping into the bar. All that they had worked towards for the past six months would be ruined if he was to look up and see that she was not that pathetic shell of a woman who he worshipped. Still, every part of her body was telling her to go inside and get to know this man with the golden eyes. She glanced around and stepped inside before she could think better of it.

Kaidan frowned at the datapad, he was really trying to concentrate but his mind kept dragging him back to last night in Alexa Shepard's cabin or forward to visiting her new apartment that evening. Really, he thought to himself, we should have put off this whole romance until this war was over, he put down the datapad in frustration just as Jane reached his table and a smile broke across his tired face. On second thoughts, he mused as he admired her body in the unfamiliar clothes, we never should have waited so long.

"Kaidan," she greeted him, her heart thudding against her chest, he may have awful taste in women, she thought, but god does he have a killer body. He stood and slipped an arm around her waist, his lips brushed against her cheek in a kiss. She shivered.

"Alexa," he smiled using that other woman's name, "What are you doing here? I thought you were stuck at the embassies this afternoon," she shook her head.

"We finished early."

"Come and let me get you a drink, Liara and Chakwas should be here soon," Jane hesitated, sitting and talking with the other woman's crew was too much of a risk; Kaidan would surely notice that something was wrong if they spoke too much. She tried to calm her nerves and ran a hand up his well muscled arm.

"Let's get out of here," she whispered into his ear, this close she could smell his deliciously male scent and inhaled deeply. Kaidan chuckled.

"Oh yes ma'am, your new apartment?" Jane shook her head.

"Everyone knows where it is, I want you all to myself. I've booked a room in a hotel. Come on," he opened his mouth to ask more questions but she pressed a finger to his lips, a gleam in his eye. Jane couldn't believe that this was so easy, Alenko clearly had no idea who she was and didn't seem keen to question her enthusiasm. As she led him towards the hotel she felt her nerves mounting, waking up as a clone six months ago hadn't given her much experience with men and she was worried Kaidan would be able to tell the difference. Kaidan couldn't believe how lucky he was, sure he and Shepard had managed to get plenty of passion into their relationship, it was hard not to be passionate with every time being Don't-let-anyone-find-out-we're-breaking-the-regs-sex, or thank-god-we're-not-dead-sex, or this-could-be-the-last-time-before-we-die-sex, but it was rare to get time together when they weren't both exhausted.

The moment the elevator doors closed behind them Kaidan grabbed Shepard around the waist pinning her to the wall with a deep, desperate kiss. Jane's breath caught in her throat, she felt her pulse quicken, tentatively she slipped her arms around his shoulders. Kaidan's hands dragged at her top, he needed to feel her bare skin against his. Jane gasped at his touch and he chuckled at her surprised reaction.

"If you like that, wait until we get to the room," with that he pulled away to a respectable distance so that when the elevator doors opened no one would feel the heat that was growing between them. Jane was breathing heavily, shocked at her body 's reaction to the man who followed her to the room. Her fingers, usually so sure, fumbled with the keys as she let them into the small room. Kaidan watched her with a small frown, Shepard was never nervous, especially not with him. She waited by the bed while he closed and locked the door, he turned and approached her slowly with a confident, sexy smile on his face.

"Wait," she said suddenly, stopping him a few feet from her. She turned to the shelves against one wall and removed her jacket. As she did so she surreptitiously flicked the record button on the hidden camera pointed at the bed, she winked at the lense with more confidence than she felt. Turning back to Kaidan she settled herself on the bed. Snap out of it Jane, you're Commander fucking Shepard and you aren't scared of any soldier boy.

"Take off your clothes," she said, her voice cold and commanding. Kaidan's smile widened, Shepard may be the indisputable commander on the battlefield but it was rare for her to take the lead in the bedroom. Slowly he pulled his shirt over his head. Jane bit her lip, definitely a killer body, she thought as he unbuttoned his pants. She took in his tanned, toned body and his obvious excitement with satisfaction, she could see why the other woman wanted him. Watching Shepard's eyes travel over his body, Kaidan removed the last of his clothes, her eyes narrowed the way they did when she had prey in her sights. His cock stood out proud, larger than she had expected from a man who followed the other woman around like a puppy, before she could gather her thoughts he was beside her. She gasped as he pushed her back onto the pillows, his hands working at the fastenings of her top.

"Kaidan," she sighed as he kissed down her neck and onto her chest pleased to find that she wasn't wearing a bra. As he opened her top to reveal her small, perky, perfectly rounded breasts he felt himself harden still further. Eagerly he ran his tongue down to her nipple and took her flesh in his mouth. She let out a soft curse at his skilled tongue on her sensitive, untouched, nipple. His hand rose and cupped her other breast, gently massaging her scorching skin. His other hand was unzipping her pants and pulling them down her smooth, toned legs. When she was naked except for her plain, black underwear he pulled back and looked down at her, panting before him.

"You are so beautiful," he breathed in wonder. A shy smile lit her face as she avoided his gaze. With firm hands he parted her thighs and eased himself between them, dropping a kiss that drove the breath from her on the thin fabric of her underwear. Slowly, he drew the underwear down and away leaving him with an uninterrupted view of the glistening cleft between her legs. Jane watched his rapt expression with interest, delighting in the fact that even now he seemed oblivious to the fact that she was not the other woman. The next second she had thrown her head back as his tongue found her sensitive slit. She let out a wordless cry as he pushed his deft tongue between her folds and onto her throbbing clit. He lapped faster and faster, pushing her legs further apart, never able to get enough of the taste of his Shepard. Jane was gasping incoherently as he slowly eased a finger inside her.

"Fuck," she moaned, "you really know what you're doing don't you?" Kaidan grinned against her before taking her clit back into his mouth and sucked softly, moving his finger in and out of her faster and faster. Jane felt her whole body tightening around his touch, her chest was rising and falling rapidly, a pink flush across her chest. She could think of nothing but his tongue and fingers, the world had narrowed to the bed in the small room. The tension rose and rose, until she cried out in frustration, grinding her hips against Kaidan's face and he added another finger to the first, pumping determinedly into her. Still sucking on her clit his tongue flicked rapidly against that sensitive nub until she let out a cry of pure pleasure and release. Her whole body contracted and relaxed and she wrapped her legs around him, lost in her first orgasm.

"Kaidan," she breathed when she could speak, he pulled himself up to her height and gave her such a look of adoration that she had to turn away.

"God, I love you," he murmered, kissing her fiercely. She could still feel him hard against her leg and despite her release, and creeping fear of the pain, she longed to feel him fill her. She kissed his forehead tenderly and then realised what she was doing. He was getting under her skin, and not just literally. Jane gritted her teeth and refocused on her task.

"On your back Alenko," she ordered. He grinned and obeyed, "no, like this," she commanded pulling him around horizontally so that the camera would get the best view. Her eyes fixed on his cock resting heavily on his stomach. Then she smiled in the direction of the camera, wrapped her hand around his shaft, ignoring his sharp intake of breath, and slipped the head into her mouth. His skin was surprisingly soft, velvet over steel, and the salty taste of him was surprisingly pleasant. Steeling herself to her objective Jane slowly slipped her mouth onto him, allowing him to slide into her throat and ignoring the impulse to gag him out.

"Fuck, Shepard," he groaned raising his head to look at her. She quickly pushed him back down so that he didn't block the camera's view, she wanted the other woman to see her take all of him. A moment later her nose touched the hair at the base of his stomach and he tried to catch his breath. He stroked her red hair as she began to bob up and down on his cock. Kaidan wondered what he had done to deserve this treatment, she had never taken him this deeply before. A moment later she pulled back and drew in a long breath before straddling him. He reached for her hips and she slapped him away playfully.

"Patience," she admonished him. Kaidan watched closely as she took his cock in her hand and guided it to her entrance, he ached to thrust upwards but lay achingly still, wondering why she was hesitating. Jane's eyes were wide, now that the time had come she could feel panic flooding her but there was no way to back out now. She lowered herself slowly, feeling the head of his cock spread her lips wide with a gentle ache. Without changing her pace, her face set with the Shepard determination, she impaled herself on his hard cock until he was all the way inside her. The pain was intense but she carefully concealed it, Kaidan must not notice that she was a virgin.

"You're so tight," Kaidan said, he could feel her silky wetness on every inch of his cock.

"Better than usual?" Shepard asked, a mischievous spark in her eye. "You're always amazing, " Kaidan purred. He started to move him hips in the exact way that he knew she liked. Jane grabbed his arms, biting back a curse at the pain.

"Stay still," she growled, "let me." He stilled and ran his hands over her legs. Taking a deep breath Jane raised herself up and down, building up a steady rhythm. Soon the pain was fading and she began to enjoy the deep feeling of fullness, she didn't object when Kaidan started moving again. He watched her ride him with love and wonder on her face. Kaidan's movements and her excitement at getting the better of him were driving her crazy, she could feel the tension rising in her again. She could almost forget that the man beneath her thought she was someone else, almost believe that the look of adoration on his face was for her.

"Alexa," he groaned snapping her out of her fantasy. Without thinking what she was doing she hit him, hard, across the chest.

"Call me Shepard," she snapped. Kaidan froze in shock, he knew that if she had really wanted to hurt him she could have done so but still, this was Commander Shepard, kick-ass Vanguard, and it was no girly slap. She was looking down at him angrily, a look on her face that he had never seen before.

"What was that?" He asked, his voice calmer than he felt. "Don't like it rough today Alenko," she said coldly, grinding her hips against him and feeling him respond despite his hurt expression. Still unsure Kaidan decided to go with it.

"If that's what you wanted, you only had to ask." She gripped both his hands and pinned them down level with his head.

"I'm asking," she purred, "lie still, shut up and let me ride you." "Yes ma'am," Kaidan said with a smirk as she began to move again. The motion of her warm, wetness soon had him moaning, his frustration at having to lie still driving him mad. Jane dug her nails into Kaidan's chest as she felt her body responding to his hardness within her. Kaidan gasped as the pain mingled with the pleasure. His cock was tightening as her hips rolled on him, his breathing fast from the effort of not moving. Jane leant back to allow his cock to hit the spot that made her moan. A moment later she was unable to hold back, she cried out, running her hands through her hair. Watching her climax Kaidan was unable to hold back any longer and thrust hard into her until he too let out a groan. Jane felt his cock spasm inside her, feeling the heat of his seed filling her, she screamed out her final release, making sure the camera could see her pleasure. Then she delivered the final blow to the man inside her.

"Garrus!" She screamed.

Kaidan froze, his heart contracted. Shepard appeared not to have noticed that anything was wrong. She climbed off him and headed to the bathroom slamming and locking the door behind her. Kaidan lay very still, staring at the peeling ceiling. He had heard the rumours about Shepard and Garrus before and he knew that they were close but Garrus was his friend and he trusted the turian when he said that things had never gone beyond a brief kiss between the two. Still he had always been a bit insecure about the obvious bond between the woman he loved and her best friend. Since coming aboard the new Normandy he had pushed his doubts away, they were definitely close but she had always told him that she loved him and that Garrus was like a brother to her.

But this... This was more than a rumour that he could ignore. He couldn't get the image of her face, contorted in ecstasy, screaming another man's name, out of his mind. He trusted Shepard, he knew that she would never cheat on him, but did she want to? He sat up and winced at the pain where she had hit him, was she angry that he wasn't Garrus? He looked down at his body, a large bruise was forming and blood was trickling from one of the scratch marks. The bathroom door opened and Shepard emerged fully dressed.

"I've got work to do," she said briskly, grabbing her coat from the floor.

"Alexa we have to talk about this," Kaidan said pulling himself up to his feet. Jane looked at him, still naked, still gorgeous but looking like someone had trampled his heart into the ground.

"I'm busy. Stay as long as you want but pay the hotel when you leave," Kaidan watched her leave in disbelief, Shepard was never one to run away from an awkward conversation. He shrugged into his clothes and gathered hers from the floor. Before he left he sighed and leant against the wall remembering how happy he had been when he had entered the room. He wondered how it had all gone wrong, it was as though she was a completely different woman.