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THE LIFE SCRIPT
PART 1; INTRO:
Making friends with Edward Mason was my biggest wish. I wanted to prove that I would not fall in love with him. That was almost impossible considering he was thee, most gorgeous Greek god I knew.
That was then, this is now. I now wish I had said nothing to him at all. It would have made for less damage. I changed the script of my life, and his. I altered them, I can't say his was shorter or longer, because there are two different ways of looking at it. Mine, however, was lost because of one mistake.
I will never be able to fix it, not that I would. When you get something, you lose something, that's what they say. In this case, it works both ways...
THE LIFE SCRIPT
AFTER I BECAME HIS FRIEND
16 YEARS OF AGE
AT SCHOOL COMMONS
TALKING TO EDWARD AND FRIENDS
PART 1A:
Bella's POV
"I can't believe Jessica asked you out! Seriously, you just broke it off with her sister. This isn't the first time she asked you out either. I mean, can't she take a hint?"
I was talking to Edward about what Jessica said.
"I know, dude, she's almost as desperate as Lauren!" Alice piped in.
"Why did you break it off with Jen, anyway? Never had you said she was getting boring or being a bitch," I inquired.
Edward just shrugged.
"Come on, what's so embarrassing?" I asked, stunned at his reluctance.
Usually, Edward was such and open book. What makes this different?
"Look, I'll tell you later, okay? Gotta get to class," he fumed.
Where did that anger come from? It wasn't even ten minutes until tardy. We had plenty of time. Why was he in such a rush?
With all my curiosity, I decided to follow him.
I ran to catch up with him; that was not an easy task to accomplish.
Finally, I managed and tugged on Edward's arm.
He spun around abruptly.
"What?" he spat.
I didn't know what to say.
So, I said the first thing in my mind.
"What's wrong with you? Are you alright?" I said desperately.
"Just…just…I don't know, okay? I'm confused. I can't tell you what's wrong with me. I can't tell you why I broke up with Jessica's sister. I can't tell you what I'm thinking. I can't tell you why I'm acting like this. And I can't tell you why I can't tell you. I just can't. I'm stupid and selfish and hormonal, and I just…can't, do anything that is. You know?" he said exasperated, and slightly out of breath.
I was momentarily shocked.
I decided to crumble down, just to plead one last time for him to tell me. Then, I would leave him alone.
"Edward, please I want to know what's going on. I don't care if it's something bad or wrong. I won't judge you. Just please," I breathed.
He sighed, and I groaned. It was a stubborn sigh.
"Bella, I trust you, and I love you like a sister…but…but you'll want to help me. I don't want help. I can't tell you. If anyone involved in this mess I am going through found out I told you, we'd both be in trouble. Do you understand me?" Edward said, hopelessly.
I wasn't going to give up that easily.
"Oh, I understand perfectly. You will tell me some day, Edward. I know it; you can't keep this from me forever, you know," I mumbled defiantly.
I knew he could hear me clearly.
"Whatever, Bella. We're almost late. Come on," he said, pulling on my hand.
I'd had no clue how serious his problem was.
Edward's POV
When Bella had questioned me, I knew she was right.
I would eventually end up telling her and ruin everything.
But the problem was, I didn't want to stop. Nothing was going to convince me otherwise.
I thought about this, not really paying attention during first period English, one of two classes, besides lunch, Bella and I had shared together.
The bell rang eventually and my head throbbed from the intensity of what I had taken this morning.
The effects had worn off quickly, that morning I felt so energetic.
Simply hours later, I had felt like crap. Too bad I didn't have the extra money, that would have done wonders for the state I'm in now.
Second and third period had passed uneventfully for the most part, but lunch was a different story.
Ever since I had started what I was doing three weeks ago, I had become anti-social from anyone besides close friends like Bella, Alice, and Emmett or family.
I walked in silently and approached our usual table, where Jasper was sitting. Since a few weeks ago, I also wasn't eating much.
Jasper sighed and said, "Hey, Edward, dude. You okay?"
I just nodded.
Jasper gave me a look that said he didn't believe me, but shut up when Bella and Alice were in plain view.
"Hey, Jazzy," Alice said casually.
They weren't dating at the time, but (even in my condition)it was obvious they really liked each other.
Bella ignored me while she sat down next to me and across from Alice.
She was obviously still angry with me from earlier.
I decided to give her time to cool off and worry about it tomorrow.
No one made a move to talk the whole lunch period. They sensed the tense vibe between Bella and I.
Alice sent me, 'What's wrong with her?' and 'What did you do?' glares the whole lunch period.
After Bella went to dump her tray, I decided enough was enough.
I grabbed her arm and pulled her towards a secluded area.
She protested, but I barely heard it.
"What's wrong? You know I can't tell you. I want to, sort of, but really wish you'd stop pestering me with it I-" I started, but she broke me off.
"Edward, it's not you anymore. I have to tell you something serious. You have to promise not to tell anyone. This is the reason I wasn't talking. I didn't want this information to be leaked in front of Alice. She'd freak," Bella said seriously.
She took a deep breath and told me everything. I gasped in shock.
Her secret was far more important and serious than mine.