Prologue
Sometimes, I wish that I was born into a different body. A body that could tell time by looking at the digital clock on their nightstand. A body that could see the assortment of colors spread across the feathers of a molting peacock. A body that wasn't blind, living in a world of darkness.
Sometimes I ask God why he couldn't have given me a different set of parents. Parents that didn't view love as a trivial thing. Parents that stuck to the vows they made on their special day. Parents who knew how to love.
I wonder every night as I lay in bed why God gave me a father who left my life. A father who didn't care anymore for the one he used to love or the baby girl he once held in his arms. A father who never wrote, who seemed nonexistent.
And then I wonder why he gave me a mother who couldn't handle the stress of life. One who threw her life away by going to clubs and bringing home new men every few months. Men who worshipped her, but yelled and cursed at the rest of their lives. Their lives that allowed them to see the waves as they crashed on the beach, that enabled them to appreciate the beauty of a sunset, a beauty I've only felt through books.
At times I even wish that I was never born. I wish that God would strike me down with a bolt of lightning, because sometimes death is more appealing than the obstacles life throws at you.
But most of all, I pray every night that I would find one person on this planet that loved me. Someone who made me feel like I could see the world and its beauty just by being with them. Someone who loved me for me, and saw past my weaknesses and found my spirit. A spirit that can never be broken, no matter how hard it is beaten.
I'm sorry it's so short! It is a prologue… Hope you enjoyed the sneak peek! I'll put the first chapter up soon. You know, reviews might help a little…