Chapter 1: Leaving home august, 29, 2009

I am fourteen years old! Fourteen and I have no say in whether we move across the country! We, meaning my mom and I, are moving from New York to Las Vegas for her new boyfriend Chad.

It is so unfair that I have to leave my friends and practically my whole life. She said it's no big deal that I'll make new friends but she doesn't get it. I'm going to high school! Apparently she doesn't get that it's extremely hard to get in with people when you go to high school.

With my luck I'll probably end up being and outcast with maybe two friends or less. She's like oh yeah you're going to make so many new friends; maybe you'll even get a boyfriend. Well I'll describe myself.

I have long curly bleach blond hair with natural additions like strawberry blond, platinum blond, and golden blond, blue eyes, I'm a B-cup and I'm tall/skinny; 5'6 120lb. You may think I look good but I don't think so. I can be very antisocial. But maybe if I'm lucky, I'll grow some courage and I'll be social, yeah I'll try to be social.

-Saying Goodbye-

My best friends, Mandy, Tracy, Beatrice or BB, Nichole or Nikki, Sandy and Cindy were all in my driveway ready to say goodbye but first I had an announcement. I needed to tell them that I was going to come back. They were really the sisters I never had.

"I just want to tell you guys that you're my sisters. I promise I'm going to come back. I love you guys and you mean the world to me," I say starting to cry and I continued, "I swear if something happened to one you guys I would buy myself a ticket on a turbo jet and get my ass down here as fast as possible. If someone messes with you say you got a ghetto bitch as a friend and she's not afraid to come down here and defend you," I say as they all laughed at my articulate choice of words. Now I have something to say to all of you and a gift for you guys," I said as I pulled out the photo albums I had bought for them a week ago.

"I want you all to take one of these, fill them with future memories and when I come back to visit show them to me," I handed them the ones that had their name on it. Right then the cab showed up to take us to the airport. We said our goodbyes and my friend Mandy had to say something.

"I want you to remember that when one door closes another one opens. Things happen for a reason," she said. I gave her one final hug and climbed into the cab bawling.

The airplane ride went smoothly with slight turbulence. I got off the plane and got into Chad's car with my mom. We couldn't move our car with us so it was sold and it helped pay for the moving van that would be arriving in six days. Chad had taken the honor of turning in my school papers so I would be starting in the next few days. Guess he thought he needed to win more points with mommy dearest.

I swear she doesn't even pay any attention to me anymore! It's either Chad this or Chad that. I could break my leg and she probably thinks it was a sprain and waits for the worst possible time to take me to the hospital because she would be too caught up in Chad.

Maybe there will be a couple decent people at school. I've always had strait A's and outstanding in all of my classes. I was showed the school I wanted to go to right down the street and they said it wasn't in the zoning area so I will be going to Shelton Community High School.

The place we were living in wasn't that bad either. It was one of those complexes where you rent an apartment. It was a two bedroom since I was an only child but it was very quite spacey. The day after tomorrow I'm going to school so tomorrow was going to be a busy day. I was going to be getting a pedicure and full set manicure. Then we will be going to Wal-Mart to get school supplies.

Then I realized the most painful thing. I wasn't going to see any of my friends when I left that morning. I wasn't going to get any of the hello hugs that I usually got. I wasn't going to know anybody and I was going in alone. I didn't notice the tear trailing down my face until I felt wetness on my leg.

I cried. I cried for my friends. I cried for the new loneliness that I was feeling. I just cried. I fell into a dreamless sleep. Tomorrow I would wake up and I was still going to be in Vegas, this should be fun.

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