Unbearable Pain Chapter 1: Unbearable Pain, a d.gray-man fanfic

My first D. Gray-Man fanfic, my second I'm writing :3 My first 'Your last words'. This is only a short 2 chapter (I think and hope story) .. I will have the second chapter up tomorrow after school!
Pairing: Allen x Lavi
Summary: Allen has lived through an "unbearably" pain, as he calls, all his life. Lavi confronts him about when he notices that Allen always wears his hood when it's just him around, getting caught in the moment he kissed him. Allen suddenly gets feelings for Lavi and confronts him about the kiss on their train ride to the mission.

Disclaimer: I do not own D. Gray-man, I wish I did, but if I did it would mostly be yaoi :3

30 minutes earlier...

"Allen!~" Lavi called spotting the younger white-haired walking the halls. Allen looked at him.
"Yes?" Allen flipped on his hood waited for him to catch up than started walking.
"Komui said he had a mission for us!" Lavi grinned like the idiot he is. Allen sighed.
"Alright let's go see him!" Lavi grabbed Allen's right hand and pulled him off. 'Geez pulling me again today!'
"Why do you wear you hood when it's just me around?" Lavi pushed Allen into a wall pulling his hood off. Allen stared at him with wide eyes as a sweat dropped down his cheek.
"There is no particular reason." Allen smiled his usual sweet smile.
"Liar.." Lavi reached out and touched Allen's cheek. "Is it because your left eye?" Allen raised his left hand to his left eye. Allen refused to look Lavi in the eyes. 'Even though Allen is suffering he doesn't show it. He has created a wall shielding himself, protecting himself.' "Allen!" I called as he started to walk towards Komui's office.
Allen stopped and smiled tilting his head to look at Lavi. "Hn?" Allen's left hand was shaking.
"Your hand it s-"
"Ah, I've gotten used to it." Allen half turned and faced Lavi still smiling, he brang his hand up and he held it. "It's fine." Allen looked down. "And later in a way, the pain, calms me.." Allen looked towards Timcampy who flew out of Allen's jacket and started to fly around his head. "This arm reminds me that I'm still breathing, its strange isnt it?" I looked at Allen with worry writing all over my face. "But it reminds me that I'm still alive..." Allen looked at Lavi again with his hand on his chest and smiled more.
"Allen..."
"Yeah?" Allen's smile dropped.
"It's stupid to say that the pain helps you feel alive! Dont say such a thing." Lavi looked at Allen's face that had sadness writing all over it.
Allen smiled calmly. "Hn, I knew you'd say something like that." Lavi grabbed Allen's left arm and held it up before Allen could put it down. "Lavi, I'm fine. Its not like I wanna die, this pain reminds me that I'm alive that's all..."
"..." I looked at Allen with disbelieve. "I don't understand!" Allen looked at Lavi with wide eyes no longer smiling. "I hate it when you're wounded or injured or when you suffer in agony or when you don't smile." Lavi put his hands on Allen's shoulders and pushed him to the wall lightly. "I'm not saying your wrong! It's just what I think!" Allen was staring at Lavi mouth opened a bit in shock. "You've distanced yourself from everyone because of what you say!" Lavi looked at Allen worriedly. "I get it." Lavi put his hands around Allen's waist and pulled him into a hug. "However, don't think that your alone... Who do you consider friends?" Allen's Gray eyes filled with sadness.
"Lavi I have to walking. It's a promise I made. 'Dont look back, keep walking." Like saying 'Leave me alone.' "Its ok, it's not an unbearable pain," Allen raised his left hand and touched Lavi's cheek and smiled.
'Smiling...' Lavi put his hand on Allen's arm. "... Sometimes I wish I could hate you." Lavi closed his eye that wasn't hiding behind his eye patch and leaned into Allen's touch. "When something is valuable to you, you don't want anything to harm that 'something' special. I wish I could hit you." Lavi pulled Allen into a tight hug again. "And demand you only look at me." Allen's eyes where huge and his mouth was opened a bit.
"Lavi?!"
"But, I could never intentionally cause your pain. I will protect you, so that-"
"Lavi.." Allen whispered Lavi's name. "Lavi, let me go..."
"No! I 'll show you that there are still motives to keep living! Reasons to cling onto life! I wont let go!" Lavi tightened the hug. "I'll show you that there's more to life than pain." Allen's face and eyes had sadness writing all over them as he hugged back. Lavi pulled away a bit and put his hands on Allan's neck tangling his fingers in his white hair, Allen's eyes closed. Suddenly Lavi kissed Allen. Allen's fingers shook slightly, whether it was fear or not Lavi couldn't tell.
'Its warm.. It's the warmth of life and Lavi's as well. As if I want to grasp him, I extend my arms, openly and hold on tight, so that he knows I'm his and until the time comes, I wont let go.' "Lavi.. Koumi wanted to see us right?" Lavi hit sudden remembrance and pulled away embarrassed.
"R..right!" He grabbed my hand and started walking. Lavi walked right in front of Kanda and caused a big crash!

present time...

"Che, stupid Rabbit stay out of my way." Kanda growled at Lavi.
Lavi laughed. "We both know that's impossible Yuu-chan!~" Kanda brang his mugan to Lavi's throat.
"How many times do I tell you. Do. Not. Call. Me. That."
"Kanda calm down!" Lenalee smacked Kanda upside the back of his head. Lavi laughed.
"You stupid Rabbit! I will kill you! " Lavi ran away and Kanda chased after him yelling and cursing. Lenalee sighed and followed after.
'He is acting.. As if.. Everything that happened before.. Was nothing.. And he went back to him normal self..'
A normal day, Allen sighed, Just one day without Lavi's stupidity wouldn't be so normal.
"Komui Lee?" Allen knocked walking into Koumi's office.
"Ah Allen!~" Koumi floated over to Allen. "Wheres Lavi?"
"Off running away from Kanda.." Allen sighed and walked into the office and took a seat on the couch.
Allen started to drift off when Lavi ran in the doors. "Sorry Koumi! I had a run in with Yuu-chan!~"
"STOP CALLING ME THAT!" Kanda yelled as he caught up to Lavi.
"Kanda, this is a mission for Lavi and Allen, you may leave." Kanda mumbled and left.
Koumi explained the boys mission before handing them a little booklet and letting them leave. The two went off to find their finder. Allen flipped his hood on because he was getting cold. As they found their finder in the boat in the river. "Allen your hood."
"I know.. Its cold.." Allen sat in the boat and Lavi started to push them off. "About before.." Lavi looked at Allen.
"Allen we can talk about it when we get on the train. 'Kay?"
Allen nodded and smiled.

A/N: I really like the paring Lavi x Allen :3 So, here is first chapter, please review and tell me how it is, I would love to have a review! I hope you enjoy and read the next chapter when it's up. :3