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When Will It Be Me?
Sam looked into the man she love's eyes as she raised her lips to meet his. Passion ignited within her as he lay her down on the couch, their half – eaten dinner forgotten. In those moments she felt more passion and bliss then she could ever imagine as she screamed his name.
"Jason!" Sam and Jason looked up to see Carly standing in the doorway – hysterical as always. "Jason, it's an emergency, I need you."
"Carly, we're kind of busy right now." Jason said through clenched teeth.
"But it's important, I really screwed things up this time." Jason glanced over at Sam, who, knowing what was coming next, just nodded, fighting back her tears. With one more glance behind, Jason followed Carly out the door. "Carly, I can't always be at your beck and call, Sam needs me sometimes too."
"Oh, yeah, that tramp."
"Carly.."
"Just come on."
Back inside the apartment, Sam finally let the tears free. She laid down on the couch, tears running down her beautiful face. Come on Sammy girl, you can't let yourself get into a rut. You know what I'm going to do, I'm going out – I'm gonna dance. That's what I'll do. With that she cut off the bottom of her knee length blood red dress to make it a fashionable mini. After checking her make up and doing her hair, the stunning beauty left the building to go to Jake's. She walked through the doors, determined to forget Carly and have a good time – or at least get drunk to the point of numbness – whichever came first. After her second shot of Bourbon she her a familiar voice ordering his own second round.
"Ric?" Startled, Ric looked up and found a beautiful woman with eyes that tried to shield her pain.
"Sam, what are you doing here? Shouldn't you be home with Jason?"
"I should be asking you the same thing and about Alexis. But no, Jason's with Carly – shocking isn't it," Sam stated with a grimace on her face.
"Let me guess, it was an emergency and Carly needed Jason."
"Yeah, how'd you guess?" Sam's words laced with sarcasm.
"Oh, it's my physic ability." Sam let a tiny laugh pass her lips.
"I'm just...so tired of being the thing that can always be moved down on his list of priorities, ya know?" Sam said, biting back her tears.
"Why don't you talk to Jason about this?"
"I don't know…well..what about you? Why aren't you home with Alexis?"
"Yeah. Alexis and I, we're separated." Sam felt that Ric had wanted to continue, though he had cut himself off.
"If you don't mind me asking, why are you separated?" Each of them had, in the mean time, swallowed a third drink, so their tongues were a little, let us say, loose.
"I…well. Alright, when I first came to town, I had this, hatred for Sonny. It kept eating and eating away at me and there came a point when it just consumed every part of my being. I hurt the woman I loved very much, and I hurt a woman who, for all her faults, did not deserve what I put her through. I won't – I can't – go back there. It has taken me so long, but I finally see that Sonny is not to blame for all of my problems and I can't go back to hating him with that passion, I can't do it. I literally went insane the last time, and, if I go back into that world of fighting and hating Sonny so much, Sam, I don't think I'll make it this time. I can't do it again. And, I can't live in the fear that one day Alexis will decide that I'm not fit to raise my child, I can't do it. I can't live with the ultimatums and the back and forth and the hatred, I just can't." Ric's eyes were glazed with held back tears of frustrations. "Do you think it's wrong of me, to leave my pregnant wife?"
"No, Ric. It's Alexis who was making the ultimatums and, Ric; you had to get out before it destroyed you. I think it's commendable. But it's got to be hard, you still love her right?" Ric just looked into his now empty glass. "Oh."
"It's not that, it's just. A part of me will always love Alexis and what she showed. She showed me life outside my hatred for Sonny and she's bringing my child into this world, and I will be forever grateful."
"But.."
"But, I kind of can't get my mind off of Reese," Ric said the last part in a mumbled rush.
"Wait, wait, wait. Did I hear you right? You have thing for Reese!" Sam said with a laugh in her voice.
"Well, I mean, I kinda."
"Well, I mean, I kinda, have a thing for you too Ric." Ric and Sam looked behind them to see Reese standing there, a small grin gracing her face.
"You, you do?"
"Yeah, well, let's just say I couldn't get our secret out of my mind."
"Uhh, I think this is my cue to leave. I hope you two the best. Ric, let's hang out again. Reese you too."
"Yeah, definitely. Sam, talk to Jason okay."
"Yeah, I'm just gonna take this bottle to boost my confidence, huh."
"Sam, why don't we take you home, okay. You're already a little, tipsy." Reese said in a soft voice.
"Yeah, she's right Sam. Let's take you home." Emptying the bottle, Sam muttered her consent, and allowed Reese and Ric to lead her to Reese's car (seeing as Reese was the only sober one of the group).