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Inside Us All…A Song
Fic
By: Creed
When I'm all alone…
Heero
looked up from his laptop and stared into the murky darkness. It had been
lighter when he had started working but somehow time had gotten away from him
and now it was almost dark.
And no one else is home…
Heero
looked at the door to his balcony and then back at the dark hallway that led to
his bedroom. But how many nights had he not slept in his bed but on the couch.
Just left there until dawn because he had worked so long into the night… "I
didn't do that when I lived wit the boys…is it because I moved out?" Heero
asked staring into the darkness for answers.
I wait down by the phone to remind me I'm still here.
Heero
looked over to the phone. The only object on his kitchen counter besides a
small microwave and his answering machine. Every night at 7:30 sharp Quatre
would call just to see if he was doing all right and of course the boys would
want to know how he was doing too. He had been very busy lately working as a
Preventer. He hardly ever saw the boys any more since he moved out.
When shadows paint the ceilings where small lights used to
fall…
Heero
looked up at the ceiling and then at his watch and the little blinking lights
said 7:15. "Quatre should be calling soon." Heero said looking at his laptop.
For some reason he was looking forward to the call tonight. Heero looked up at
the ceiling once more searching it for answers to the many questions that
plagued his heart. His eyes then turned to the balcony door once more. Heero
slowly got up and walked out onto the little porch. He shivered against the
cold but made not move to get a coat or go inside. Instead he just stood there
staring at the stars…
And I'm left wondering,
Being on
the top floor Heero could see so many more stars then he ever dreamed…but then
again he had never really looked at the stars before. And Heero wondered…
"Is it really worth it all?"
Heero
looked back inside and the only light he saw was the bright, florescent light
that came from his laptop. "The Preventers are going to want my report
tomorrow…" He thought his mind trailing off. Instead of going inside and
finishing the report though Heero found he could not move…or would not move?"
There's a peace inside us all.
Heero
couldn't take his eyes off the sky. There was something about it that drew him.
Something that wouldn't let him go.
Let it be your friend.
Faintly
Heero heard the sound of a phone ringing through the glass doors and looked at
his watch. "7:30!" Heero said. " That's Quatre for you. Right on time."
It will help you carry on in the end.
But still
Heero did not want to leave the silence of the sky. When he finally went inside
he had let the phone ring a little too long and his machine picked up.
There's a peace inside us all.
Heero
waited for that peaceful voice to say his usual greeting and then Heero would
pick up and try to forget his worries and listen to Quatre and speak with the
other guys like he still lived near them.
Life can hold you down.
But instead
of hearing Quatre's voice there was a deadly silence and Heero felt for one
brief moment a glimpse of the human emotion of sadness. An emotion that was
taken from his when he was young.
When you're not looking up.
But then a
voice spoke. A sweet voice. One that Heero remembered…one that he could never
forget. "Hello! Heero?" the voice said. "It's Relena and I had some free time
so I thought I'd give you a call." She said.
Can't you hear the sounds of hearts beating out loud?
Heero
couldn't hear himself think because his heart was beating fast. Faster than it
ever had. "What is this?" Heero asked. "This isn't supposed to happen…is it?"
Although the names change. Inside we're all the same.
For the
first time in Heero's life he felt the emotion of love. Or was it something
else?
Why can't we tear down the walls and show the scares we're
covering?
Heero
picked up the phone and said a breathy hello. "Heero are you okay?" Relena
asked. Heero nodded and then he realized that she couldn't see him but he
hesitated before speaking. "She's calling you and she asked if you're alright."
Heero said to himself. "What should you tell her? Lie…or should you tell her
the truth?"
There's a peace inside us all.
"But aren't
you fine?" Heero asked himself. "Heero are you still there?" Relena asked.
"Yea…" Heero said deep in thought. Heero swallowed and took a deep breath. "You
were fine out on the porch…weren't you?" he thought.
Let it be your friend.
"Well I
guess I am kind of tiered." Heero said. "Really? Me too. They make us Vice
Foreign Ministers work like dogs." Relena said as she laughed her silvery laugh
and Heero found himself smiling...not at what she said but her laugh. "I talked
to Duo today. He was chewing out a guy at McDonalds 'cause he said his fries
were cold." Relena said talking to Heero like she had seen him yesterday and
not… "When was the last time I saw her?" Heero asked himself.
It will help you carry on in the end.
"Really?"
Heero asked pushing his other question aside. "What did he do?" he asked
instead. As Relena finished the story Heero found it didn't matter when the
last time he saw her was…
There's a peace inside us all.
All that
mattered was now.
