Okay, this is my first KH fic, so try not to be too hard on me. It's kind of on the short side, but I think I ended it well.
It's hard to say when reality ends and my imagination begins.
I remember you being here with me but no one else seems to.
You, me, and Riku. We were always together. I can't see how none of our other friends can seem to remember you, but they remember Riku as if he just left yesterday.
I'm sad to say that my memory of you has slowly been fading as well, while my memory of him is still strong.
I know that I've been waiting for you for over a year now. I sit out on the beach everyday after school, just waiting. I used spend days out there, while you were still fresh in my mind. I even skipped school a few times because I thought that would be the day you finally came.
It became obsessive. I had stopped eating for sometime and what little sleep I could get was haunted by you. The days went by as this memory began to gnaw away at me.
It wasn't long before I found out that no one remembered. I asked our friends on the island, the people we went to school with, even your parents but none of them recall such a boy being on the island. That's when I began to question myself.
Were you ever real or just a figment of my imagination? If you were, then where had you gone to be so far away from me? Why couldn't you have stayed?
It after that day, you began to fade. First, your name started to slip from my mind. It scared me to no end. I tried everything I could to remember. Eventually, it slipped through my fingers, no matter how hard I tried to hold on. Your voice was next. It was always so clear in my mind, especially in my dreams of you. Now, it just seems like a radio station with bad reception, or like trying to hear someone whisper from the other side of a room.
Your face...your body...left an imprint on me that doesn't want to leave, even though it seems to be losing a battle for dominance in my mind. My dreams of you were so vivid, more so the dreams that might lead one to believe I'm not as innocent as I appear.
Waiting had turned into a longing. My loneliness made this longing unbearable. I almost went insane with this longing, this undying need for you. To have your body against mine, to feel our arms around each other, to hear your voice call out my name, and to know that I could hold you so close and never let go were the only thoughts that brought me any type of pleasure or hope. That too, started to fade. It hasn't completely gone yet, but it's worn down, like an old picture.
After that started, I actually tried to forget. You refuse to leave me be. I still sleep restlessly in the night, crying out for you into the darkness as my tears and sweat shine in the moonlight. Forgetting was not an option you planned to give me, neither was remembering apparently.
Your grip is starting to loosen on me, even though we both refuse to let go. I've gone back into a seemingly normal routine during the day. It makes everyone I know happy to see me 'acting normal again' and 'behaving normally'. They don't know that these daily things are confusing me and making me feel number with each passing day.
It's only been a year but it feels like an eternity has passed. I continue to dream of you, you are my sanctuary that holds me as I'm fast asleep, keeping this dull ache away in the night.
I'll always wait for you, no matter how long it takes because waiting for you is all I have left...
I hope it wasn't too bad. Please review. Just show some love and click the 'Go' button left. You know you want to.
Peace, for now!