The Man She Wants
Author: MoonStarDutchess
Part 1: Groom
Disclaimer: I don't own FMA and I gain no profit from this fanfiction.,
AN: I usually don't write in the particular tense or point of view that I have for this four part series but the plotbunnies wouldn't leave me alone. I got the idea while picking raspberries of all things. LOL XD I hope you enjoy this.
In the back of my mind, I always knew. I knew that I would never be the most important man in her life. I knew his words would always outweigh any opinion I had. I knew he'd always come first no matter what. Even at the risk of herself.
But I'd been in complete denial because she was perfect for me. We had so much in common. She was beautiful, intelligent, independent, and strong. Riza Hawkeye was the best woman I'd ever met and the best one I'd ever lose. All those things about her clouded my judgment until today.
When I proposed and she accepted, I knew deep down I wasn't the man she wanted down on his knee in front of her. I don't think she was even aware that I wasn't the one. Her duty perhaps, or her longing for a family, or the barriers preventing their relationship, clouded her mind of what she truly desired.
Now as I watch her walking down the aisle towards me in a white dress, I know I'm not the one she wants standing here. Her gaze doesn't quite meet mine, conveying to me that she's realized it as well. I'm not the one she wants to look her in the eyes, or the one she wants to commit herself to until death. She's already committed herself to someone like that. All they lack is a ring.
And she knows it now.
When she arrives at my side and her grandfather, begrudgingly because he never liked me, gives me her hand, I know she wants to feel a rough glove in her palm instead of a smooth bare hand.
"I'm not him."
Her eyes widen and she meets my gaze. "No, you aren't. I'm sorry."
"Me too," I say, and then smile at the beautiful woman. "Go find the one you want."
She kisses my cheek, a very un-Riza-like gesture, then runs towards the door to the song of confused guests.
She's running to the one she wants, and I'm not the one.
AN: Comments are much appreciated.