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Another Logan Angst Poem. Extremely depressing, sorry loves! This one's got some pretty serious stuff. Please if you or anyone else you know is experiencing abuse, You are not alone. You will not be judged. There are many places you can go for help. Do not be afraid. You are stronger than anyone could ever know.
-Katherine Elizabeth
Tell me what you see
When you look into my eyes.
Is it the sadness I feel
That just won't die?
I want to run
Escape everything so fast
It will haunt me forever, though
My abusive past
Beating.
Shoving.
"You're worthless!"
It echoes in my head
Spins around
A twisted carousel
I wish I was dead.
My thoughts are numb with
Memories of the old
Everybody stares past me
My heart has grown cold.
Look at me
Here I am
Do you see
What I could never speak?
All the punches
The whips so real
I beg myself
To try to feel
My life is sadness,
A horrible play
For some reason,
I can't convince myself to stay
Till the end of the show
I'm just a pawn
I wonder how the end goes…
Pills at dawn?
A knife at midnight?
Somehow I know
Any choice is right
To be away
From the hell I feel
I have to die
To know I was ever real.
Abuse follows me
Wherever I turn
I want to light myself up
Feel, really feel the burn.
Do you understand?
How numb I am?
There's a pain here
No one can withstand.
Being used
Body and brain
"I want your smarts, Logan!"
Take away my pain.
That's the real me
A scared little boy
My father's punching bag
I'm a weathered toy.
Please take the pain.
Please,
If there is a God,
Just
Let
Me
Die.