Have I gone insane?
I don't know, nor do I wish to know.
I looked at myself in the mirror. As pale as a ghost, as lifeless as a corpse...
Putting in a mask, similarly to like my hollow, but invisible. It felt cold, felt so fake.. Felt so anguish.
Seeing so much people being happy makes me want to join them so bad. I want to be with them so much. I want to reach them, but before I could even touch them... I pulled awayime I have just been burned by hot steel.
No, I can't let them see me like this.
And thus, the mask is born.
It felt so annoying, it hurts so much to put it on when all I want is to show them how much in pain I am. It pains me to see their worried looks when they saw how thin I am, how my orange vibrant hair turned dull, and how.. Lifeless I could be.
I want to feel better.
I want to escape this.
I want to be out there and... Be free...
YOUDESERVETHIS
NO I DONT!
DONT LIE TO YOURSELF, LOOK AROUND YOU, THEY DONT WANT YOU. They're happy without you, they're ecstatic to leave you!
NO SHUT UP!
I tried to take the mask off, to tell someone... To tell them I love them...
Yuzu..
Karin..
Dad...
Rukia...
Renji...
Everyone...
Help me... Please... I don't want to die...