Title- So Many Things Changed, I Don't Think I'm Real Anymore
Author- Light K. Yagami
Fandom- Attack On Titan/Shingeki No Kyojin
Rating- T
Pairing- None
Warnings- None
There was nothing beautiful in death. For me, it was all blood and guts. That's all there was anymore. I felt as though it was on me at all times, even though I'd cleaned myself multiple times. That, by itself, is not beautiful. Often times tears will mix in with the blood, and then other times it finds a way to create a mask-like coat around my eyes.
Whoever said death was beautiful certainly has never been through the pain of seeing multiple of your friends be eaten, or succumb to the darkness within their own head. The latter is worse because it makes you wonder if you will go the same way, or if you will be eaten. Almost everyone has given up hope that they will make it out alive, no matter what the mission is. We strive to live another day, not till the end of the Titan's reign.
The weightlessness that comes along with the 3D Maneuver Gear doesn't even have the same effect anymore. It's all the same. We wake up, get dressed, put the straps on, then our jackets and cloaks, and eat breakfast. After that, we either get ready to go on another exploration or we wait to find out when the next one is. Occasionally we have meetings about our progress- or lack of- but those are rare. Sometimes we have inspections, but those aren't exciting.
Really, it's come down to the fact that we aren't even fighting anymore. It's become a glorified suicide trip. I think even the corporal knows.
Eren's been dead for a while, or he is at least assumed to be. He went missing, so he could've gone rogue and went into the wild. I don't like to think that's a logical possibility. But we know we don't have enough men or horsepower to send a search party for him. If he did go rogue, there's a possibility that he had left the walls altogether… And made it outside.
If that's the case, I'm happy for him. At least he got to see it, even though we promised to see the ocean together. But so many things have changed since then.
So many things.
THE END
I've been going through a lot of my folders on Google Docs and posting them, just short one-shot drabbles I wrote for practice. Um, so excuse any mistakes or the like, because I don't have them beta'd. But, if you'd like to beta, you should totally talk to me, either here or on Tumblr.
If you have any one-shot requests, that'd be awesome, I'm always taking them (again, on here or Tumblr!)
Hope you enjoyed the angst,
Light K. Yagami xx