More Than This.
You're gone and I must deal with the consequences.
There has to be more then this.
Life could not be so cruel as to give me the opportunity to have you and then take you away on a whim.
We were meant to be more than this. You and I. Meant to be one not to be pulled apart to the point of not wanting to wait for what we knew was right.
We had a future to look forward too. A foundation to build with the love we had saved for so long.
I wonder where I went wrong when I had lost your love, your confidence, your respect or when you stop caring if I was still there for you.
To think I had it and now it is all gone slipped through my fingers like sand.
Nothing hurts as much as that now. That I had the opportunity to change this but I did nothing but stand back and watch. I kept telling myself it was a phase you were going through that you would eventually bounce back to your normal self and back to me.
I remember the moments we had when you needed me and only me. It was a mutual I needed you and the bond we had was strong I thought. But things got strained between us. There was no way of knowing that it would come to this.
My heart broken, my dreams shattered my life a waste.
Like a fleeting dream in the night you where no longer there you had left me to fend for myself my life with its ups and downs and no way to control them. Alone to battle the demons that would haunt me with my pass and present deeds.
You have no care in the world you are clueless to what you have done to me. I long for you but you are not part of my misery any longer.
You are the reason I am miserable.
There has to be more than this.
More to this life I have to find a solution to this mystery. The mystery only to my self since you've moved on and left me to cope with this shattered life.
Life will go on for you with another at your side.
I know my place I will try to heal the wound that you have left in my heart. You will never know how hard I've fallen and if I will ever land.
I will watch you from afar and wish you well, I will let you lead the life I know you deserve to have I will be waiting in the usual place. Waiting for an eternity it seems to see if you will ever come back and make me whole again.