Title: Why Her
Author: Pebbles
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I don't own anything.
Song: Why Her by Monica
Evangeline sat at the bar in Capricorn nursing her dirty martini with three olives, thinking about what had just happened. As hard as it had been to do it she knew deep down, that what she did was right and when it stopped hurting, everybody involved would realize it was for the best in the long run. As she raised her hand to the bartender to signal she wanted another drink, the song playing ended, and a new song with a nice slow beat started to play in the background. After the first few seconds of listening she recognized the voice as a singer she liked, by the name of Monica. She had to laugh at how the song perfectly described her life as of lately.
Ooooo
Why her why her
Why her her
Umhmm
The last tear just fell from my eyes
Told myself that I wasn't gonna cry no more
(you did what you did, it is what it is)
And that's why I walked out the door
As the song played on she continued to justify what she did in her mind even though it wasn't necessary. She did it to keep herself from focusing on how heart broken she really was.
Moved on with my life but not really
Spent too much time wonderin how could you
(do this to us, thought we were in love)
Guess I was thinking too much
Even though she tried with every ounce of her will power to stop her mind from the next clutter thoughts, they came tumbling to the forefront of her mind anyway. She thought of the passion they had in their relationship from the very beginning, that she always attributed to the love the shared for one another, even if he could never say it, but what if she was wrong and the great sex they had was nothing more than that, great sex.
(I was thinking that the sex had your love)
(You never could get enough, cuz you know I kept it hot)
(I listen to you tell me your dreams and your fears)
(I wiped your tears)
I was there and this is why this is hurtin me
But how could it just be great sex with the way they opened up to each other. Undoubtedly, she had done a lot more of the sharing but their had been certain moments when he had really put his trust in her and told her stuff he never told anyone before.
(Why her, why her)
Did I get on your nerves
Did I give you too much, that you couldn't handle my love
(Why her, why her)
Tell me what she was worth
To make you put her first instead of me
And maybe because of that she had pushed him too hard to give her more. To somehow match her outpouring of love. But maybe he just wasn't capable of giving her more, and he got tired of her asking for more.
You wanna comeback but I gotta know
(Why her)
Thought she was all that, then why you at my door
(Now look at cha, look at us, whats all this for)
(Hope you got the answer to my questions)
Ooo
(Why her)
Even with all this passing through her mind, there was an annoying voice somewhere in her head, asking what made her think this was the last time. She answered the voice quietly but out loud all the same. She knew this was the last time because she had to much respect for herself to fall back into that situation. It had happened before. An apology and a puppy dog look had her forgetting herself and resuming things right where they left off.
This gon be the last time we say goodbye
Ain't gonna be no reruns of this episode
(You did what you did, it is what it is)
Maybe if you would have told me you weren't happy, you weren't satisfied
We could have worked it out
Maybe we could have tried
(But you didn't say nothing)
All along fakin and frontin, why
As the song played on, she started to feel better not a lot better, but still better. Evangeline came to the conclusion that the relationship had been doomed from the start. Because she was Evangeline Williamson and she didn't do anything half way. So it was silly of her to think a half way relationship with him could work.
Now ladies, yall know I speak from experience right
I used to look at him and wonder why
Why her
You know what I'm sayin
But ladies I've learned not to worry about them livin the happily ever after
Cus see that s**t was built on a lie
So its sure to fall
That's why I stand tall
(Baby baby baby)
I just looked at him, and said this right here
It was funny that it only took a couple of drinks and a special song to help her realized what had been right in front of her nose for a long time. John and her just didn't belong together. But realizing that they were never right for each other didn't stop a tiny part of her from wondering why…why her.
Can you tell me
(Why her, why her)
Did I get on your nerves
(Did I give you too much, that you couldn't handle my love)
Ooo, why
(Why her, why her)
(Tell me what she was worth to make you put her first instead of me)
Ooo, why
The grass looks greener on the other side
(Why her)
But I promise you'll be back tonight
(Now look at cha, look at us, whats all this for)
Ooo, oooo,oooo
(Hope you got the answers to my questions )
Why her
THE END