Martel….
My beloved sister….
Sunny days hurt the most.
Bright sunny days…I hate them the most because there is nothing to be smiling in my life and they seem to be mocking me.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
Sometimes I feel like everything is meaningless. After I lost you I thought my life ended as well.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile; I see your face,
I knew I lost a part of myself that would never come back, it died along with you. I feel shut off from the world, and I don't want to share feelings with anybody, especially not Yuan and Kratos.
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
They look at me differently now. Martel if you were here everything would be so different. I see, hear, and feel you every where I go. It's still hard for me to believe you're gone.
I still can't believe you're gone.
NOTHING IS FAIR!!
It ain't fair; you died too young,
Why did you die?! You didn't deserve to die!!
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
Everybody deserved to die before you did! My world as I knew it fell apart when you fell into my hands…dead.
God knows how I miss you,
You died too young…why did it happen this way?!
All the hell I've been through,
No one can ever take your place you were too important to me.
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
I wonder…who would you be today?
Who'd you be today?
I've been wonder what would you being doing now?
Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
I have a strong feeling you would chase your dream…nobody being discriminated.
Settle down with a family,
I bet you would marry Yuan. I knew he loved you more than anything... I wonder if you would have kids.
I wonder what would you name your babies?
What would you name them?
I looked forward to being an uncle (at least I think I did) now that will never happen.
Some day's so blue,
You will were only family I had left.
I feel like I can talk to you,
Sometimes I think I could here you talking to me but I bet it was just my wishful thinking.
An' I know it might sound crazy.
When I think about what happened, you know when and how you died I just get so mad!!
It ain't fair; you died too young,
It feels like your life had just begun, and it was stopped by death.
Like a story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
I feel like crying but Cruxis angels can't cry.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Heh, that sounds weird when you think about it.
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Angels are supposed to holy being that everyone looks up to, not the ones I have in mind though. I'll always wonder who'd you be today.
Who you'd be today?
Today, today, today
Today, today, today
Oh, sis I miss you so much! I wonder if there was anything could have done to prevent your death?
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I don't know why I keep dwelling on this subject because it's over now and you can't change the past.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.
The only thing that gives me relief from this everlasting pain is that fact that I will see you again someday…someday.
Some day, some day, some day