Hello, everyone! Here I am with another oneshot! For this one, a song inspired me. It's a song I've known for a while, but it gave me an idea, and I just had to get it down! The song is called Disappoint, and it's by Assemblage 23. I hope you like the story! A little note before you read on, though. This does happen in my main story continuity, but it is just a what if, and this will not happen in the actual stories. If you haven't read Sonic: Before Heroism and a couple chapters of The Two-Tailed Fox, then I would recommend doing so. Anyway, enjoy!

Disappoint

Do you believe in the nobility of suicide?
No.

I'll never forget when this happened… You always seemed so strong. I never imagined you to do something like this, but Eggman… Ugh! Why must that bloated buffoon always do something to irritate me or you? It just doesn't seem fair! I wish you hadn't done this! But you harbored so much sorrow in you… I'm surprised and angry with myself that I didn't see it earlier. All in all, I'm angriest with myself because I watched you do it. I watched you kill yourself, and for what? For what? So that you could just die? I should've stopped you! I really should've!

I remember talking to you earlier that day. You seemed fine. I didn't see anything that Eggman could've used to his advantage, but… I've been wrong before, as much as I hate to admit it.

Just one more time
For the sake of sanity
Tell me why
Explain the gravity
That drove you to this
That brought you to this place
That pushed you down
Into the soil's embrace

I just wish you would've told me about this sooner. It all could've been avoided. I wish you could've told me your reasons before you did it. We could've sat down and talked about it.

Give me the chance
I was denied
To sit and talk with you
For one last time

I remember the letter you left me, painstakingly written down onto a little note card. You always hated writing, not because you couldn't, but just because you didn't normally use your hands for that. Your hands preferred action, not little marks left on paper by graphite.

Dear Tails,

I wish it didn't have to be this way. Really, I do… but Eggman brought something up in me… Something I can't repress anymore… If I don't do something about it, it's just going to eat me up, and I can't let that happen. I'm sorry, little bro. I really am, but this has to end now. I'm sorry… Bye.

Love,
Sonic

That letter tore my heart in two… Why didn't you just talk to me about this?

I can't forget
Having to see
The words that knocked the wind
Right out of me
It's not enough
I've come undone
Trying to find sense
Where there is none

I remember going on in a frantic rush to find you before you did something stupid. I just kept wishing that you would have talked to me. I'm your little brother. You can talk to me about anything!

Just give me peace
You owe me that
To help ward off the fears
I must combat

I don't even know why, but I'm standing over your dead body right now, begging for an explanation. You can't give me an explanation, though… because you're not here anymore… Then why am I still talking to you? Have I lost all sanity? No, I just need a reason that badly…

And so I ask
For one more chance
To understand
This senseless circumstance
Help me to see
This through your eyes
The reasons I've been trying
To surmise

I guess I can't keep asking you forever… I know I'm not gonna get a reply, so why bother…? I should just leave you alone and go deal with my pain by myself. It's healthier that way. Your pain is done… It's just that you were the closest family member I've ever had. You were like a father and a brother all in one… I wish you hadn't gone…

Though you are gone
I am still your son
And while your pain is over
Mine has just begun

I even remember how you killed yourself… I don't want to recall it, but I can't help it… But why did you have to kill yourself using something that you utterly hate? I remember finally finding you at the beach, letting the waves wash over your bare feet. Your feet are never bare, so that immediately told me something was wrong. I asked, and you told me just to get lost. I was hurt. I really was. You said I'd never understand if you were to tell me. How do you know I wouldn't understand? I just wanted to help…

You started to walk into the water. I might have been able to understand your sorrows, but I just can't comprehend the desire to do that. I didn't know why you'd want that. I kept yelling for you to stop, but you wouldn't listen. You finally said my name when you were neck-deep in the water. "Do you believe in the nobility of suicide?" you asked me. I was taken so aback by your question. I could only think of one word to answer you with. "No."

You sighed angrily and started walking again. I tried. I tried so hard to get my legs to move and go rescue you, despite the fact that you wanted so badly to end it, but my legs wouldn't respond. I just collapsed to my knees and started crying as your whole head went under.

Did I disappoint you?
Did I let you down?
Did I stand on shore
And watch you as you drowned?
Can you forgive me?
I never knew
The pain you carried
Deep inside of you

I guess this was meant to be… Whatever it was that caused you such sorrow, it must have really been serious. Wait a second…! In your hand… Is that another letter? I slip the envelope out of your hand, and sure enough, it has my name on the front. I open it, and once again, your handwriting is on the paper.

My Little Brother, Miles "Tails" Prower,

I'm sorry I didn't tell you about all of this earlier. It was just too painful for me to say aloud. Maybe, if Eggman hadn't mentioned it, it could've stayed hidden until I was ready to talk. You see, my parents died a long time ago. They were murdered by bandits, along with my little brother. After that, I was forced to live with my uncle… My real uncle, not Uncle Paul… His name is Frank… He'd do all sorts of stuff to me… He'd hit me… He'd cut me… He'd call me names… He'd threaten to kill me… Eggman called me a "naïve kid", and it kind of got to me… Frank used to call me stuff like that all the time, including worse words which I'm not going to write down. After that, I just kept getting reminded of stuff. I couldn't get it out of my head. I had to end it, and I'm so sorry for that. I hope you have a good life, little buddy, and please, don't grieve over my death, at least not for too long. Just remember that I'll be watching over you in heaven. Good-bye. I love you, little bro.

Love, Your Big Brother,
Ogilvie Maurice "Sonic" Hedgehog

Oh, Sonic! For God's sake, why didn't you just talk to me? This whole thing could've been avoided…! You don't even realize how close you were to me! Your pain is over, but mine's just starting, Sonic…

Though you are gone
I am still your son
And while your pain is over
Mine has just begun

Well, Sonic sure did have a lot of sorrow plaguing him. This is the shortest story I have ever written, but I still think it was a good one. Anyway, I hope you liked, and please review!

-Camobamo1