Author's Note: I know I don't own Dongbangshinki, if I did, do you think I'd be writing fics about them…….

Anyway, Jae Joong and Junsu are their own people and as far as I know they aren't in a relationship tis just a fic. . ; Also I don't own the song "My Destiny" Tis preformed by them and is copywritted by them. -

-GN

My Destiny – Part one

Some say love is a good thing. That it is most always meant to be when you're together for more than a month or two.
Not for me...

Jae Joong stared out the window of an old chapel. The sky seemed only black and white to him, even in the morning light as the sun rose. He'd been drug there because Junsu had to do some work with one of the nuns there. Another forced thing.
Things had been fine up until a few days ago. Jae Joong didn't know what it was. He sighed and watched the sun set up into the sky for another long and boring day in a sea of pain and confusion.
Was it meant to be?
Jae turned his head gently to look at his koi, Junsu.
Or was it just a mistake?

Jae's hand went to his head, grabbing a handful of hair and slamming his head against the wall. No one turned. Good. He didn't need attention. He didn't want attention.
He laughed a bit to himself and slid down the wall, the bricks in the chapel, along with the light dissolved into a puddle around him. His vision going black.

My heart is still struggling to return to that long night

Jae Joong looked around, black and white all around him. Was he dreaming? His eyes widened as he saw himself sitting against a rock on a beach. Jae Joong hadn't noticed the water until he saw himself pick up a shell. He walked forward toward himself a bit before edging backward.
Light footsteps came closer, black hair in a swirl, turned around to face the oncoming person.
It was Junsu.

Jae Joong's eyes widened a bit as he saw himself get up and walk over to the boy. He continued to watch as the memory played over again.

The promise I made that early morning has become a lie and I can't go back

Gentle hands caressed Junsu's face, trailing down with the other down to his shoulders as Jae kissed him. Junsu going along with it, leaned in and wrapped his hands around Jae Joong's neck. After a few moments they pulled away.

Still watching the memory, Jae Joong inched closer so he could hear his other self and Junsu speak. All he could hear was himself.
"I promise I'll stay with you forever."
Junsu's voice, faint, but barely audioable sounded out afterward.

Jae Joong backed away from the two. He couldn't stand it anymore! He screamed, eyes shooting open to face his lover.

"Jae Joong? Are you ok?"

Jae's eyes looked around as he frantically searched the chapel for something that wasn't there. Was it...just a dream?
Maybe?

A small laugh jerked him out of his thoughts. Junsu shook his head and pulled him up off of the cold floor. "C'mon you, we need to get home"

Jae Joong nodded in response and let Junsu pull him out of the chapel and to the car.

Our shadows are starting to move back to those days

Jae stopped in front of his jeep and turned to Junsu, smiling gently, he reached out and grabbed his Koi's hands. Junsu looked up and smiled, letting himself to be pulled into the others arms. "we need to go" Jae Joong said, inches away from Junsu's face.
A small annoyed look crossed the shorter one's features as he shook his head and pulled away from Jae Joong. "tease"

A few miles down the road, Jae Joong's vision returned to black and white, only it wasn't him this time. Lightning flashed around them as it started to pour.
"Wow, it's raining pretty hard" Junsu said, his eyes not leaving the window he was looking out of.
Jae's hands didn't leave the steering wheel, nor his eyes off the road "Yeah, I'm a bit worried"
"About – Jae?"
Jae Joong eyes widened as he cursed and jerked the car over to the side. Headlights, that where once in front of him, where now to the side, coming closer, and closer. Junsu shut his eyes tightly as the headlights hit the side of the car. His side.

Jae's hands left the steering wheel and went up towards his face as the air bag hit him. The car, rolled over onto it side, before another car, not seeing the accident because of the dark rain, slammed into the bottom of the jeep.

You know that I'm still waiting for you

A blur of white and grey surrounded Jae's mind. All he could see or think about was Junsu. His hand reached out to touch what he knew he couldn't and it hit something. Something hard.
What was there?

Jae Joong's eyes snapped open to find himself being pulled out of the jeep. Flames erupting the front of it. He could hear the people around him as they pulled him out. Jae...Joong
He was pulled farther away from the car...

...you promised...

Brown eyes widened as the car became surrounded in flames. I promised...

...You wouldn't leave...

"NO! LET ME GO!" Jae Joong threw himself out of the man that pulled him out's grasp and ran toward the car. Junsu was still in there!!!

Another day, Another night

A gush of wind sent Jae flying backward, blackening his vision once again. Another blur of colors surrounded his mind, as the sun faded and the moon rose before him. He saw himself again, only this time he wasn't on a beach. He could smell food. A kitchen?
Jae Joong heard laughter, as he turned to face the sound, he saw Junsu run in front of him. Eyes grew wider, that wasn't in front, that was through him.

Jae's eyes fixed on the vision before him.

Junsu wrapped his arms around Jae Joong and nuzzled into his back. "Whatcha makin'?" He asked and tried to look over. All that got him was a small glare.
"Alright! I know! I know! You don't like anyone watching you cook!"

Jae Joong smiled a bit as he watched Junsu waddle off and his other self go back to what he had been doing.

But our future is going nowhere

Jae Joong's smile grew as Junsu snuck back into the kitchen. He was always trying to sneak food away before Jae Joong was finished making it.
Just as Junsu made it behind Jae Joong, fire flew from his form's clothes. Surrounding Junsu and the kitchen.

The smiled faded quickly as Jae Joong tried to save Junsu. He ran over and went to grab his shoulder, only it didn't stay, it went straight through.
The fire spread rapidly, stopping him from seeing Junsu or his other self. The memory was just a bunch of flames now.

Now living without your love

Jae Joong sat up straight, pain echoing throughout his entire body. The light made it clear he was in a hospital, so did the cold that stung his lightly clothed body.
"Where..."
"JAE JOONG!! You're ok!"
He turned to the voice. Maybe it was Junsu!!

Yunho ran over to him and kneeled beside the bed. Yoochun and Changmin hadn't come, it was just Yunho. "what...happened"
"You where in a car acci-" Yunho stopped, tears threatening to come from his eyes.
"Where's Junsu?"
Yunho broke and started to cry. "They never got him out of the car"
Jae Joong's eyes widened as he stared at Yunho. "you're lying"
"I'm not..."
"Get out.." Jae's voice was shaky yet deadly.
"Wha-"
"I said GET OUT!" He yelled and threw his pillow at Yunho.
Yunho stood up and ran out, surprised at his friend. Jae Joong watched and then as the door shut, lowered his eyes to the white sheets. It was all a lie. He would get out and come home and Junsu would be there.

...right?

To be Continued...