Title: Rolling in the Deep
Author: Sarmi
Category: Post Buffy Season 8 Spoilers for Issue 40
Genres: Angst
Disclaimer: I don't own Buffy Spike or even Angel but a girl can dream.
Summary: After the roller coaster of Season 8, where does this leave Buffy and Spike
Authors note: The title of this story and lyric within is from the Adele song "Rolling in the Deep"
Prelude: An Army of One no More
There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark
Alone.
With an army of slayers at my side I had never felt more alone. A multitude to share the burden with, yet I felt its crushing weight with every breath. It choked at me, like the earth once had as I crawled out of my grave. What had once been a hell of 147 days, spiraled into an infinite present of day to day solitude.
But my army was now scattered, I was a traitorous pariah. My oldest and best friend couldn't even look at me anymore without disgust in her eyes. My watcher dead by the hands of the supposed love my life. Now in the care of a woman I had once envied and loathed at the same time. But even with my life in ruins, I couldn't feel alone. Not anymore. Because when all hope seemed lost he had appeared. As though he had never left me. And after all of the wrong I had done to him, he still had my back. Like he always had, like I knew he always would. Because even though he didn't believe me, he still believed in me.