Okay, so, in all honesty, I completely blame "The Voice" on NBC last night for spawning this. (Weird, I know.) Still, I hear a song, then I think, 'Ooh, that could work for OuaT/magic/etc., then I think of CS, Emma possibly facing a struggle between light and darkness, and things spiraled from there. I honestly wasn't going to do anything on the "Emma-going-dark" front; others are tackling it nicely and I wasn't sure how I would, but then…this happened. This is just the short intro, and I'm not exactly sure where it's going to end up, so hang on for the ride! And please, please, pass along any comments you have. They're helpful, encouraging, and just good for the writer's soul!
Enjoy!
"Put A Spell on You (because you're mine)"
By TutorGirlml
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The deepening purplish circles under her eyes have been growing ever more pronounced, worrying him for weeks now. She is both anxious and jittery, yet bone-weary and weighed down by the cares upon her shoulders. Emma Swan surely thinks that she has hidden her stress and fatigue well, but to one who knows her (and he does know her – as well as she will allow anyone to) the strain is beginning to show.
When they part ways at night now, she tilts her face up to his, grinning a warm, secretive smile and awaiting his gentle kiss, and he tucks her hair behind her ear, cradles her cheek in his hand for a moment, profoundly happy to steal a few moments alone with her. Yet, he also finds himself near to biting a hole in his tongue to keep back his words of caution for her, his fear that she is pushing herself too hard, too far, too soon. He cannot risk driving a wedge between them or making her run – not now. She is already keeping her distance from her parents, no longer staying with them in the loft. He has gone back to his ship since the Jolly's return to him, and so has offered her the use of his room at Granny's – paid for the month in doubloons that the old woman bit to check for authenticity, then grinned conspiratorially, accepted, and ferretted away in some hidden pocket of her skirts. However, he wonders if Emma paces the floor all night, or haunts the library seeking answers with an equally sleepless Belle, or simply drives aimlessly for hours; whatever it is she does, he can plainly see that she is not resting.
Killian Jones is not a man afraid of much on this wide earth's surface, but Emma turning her back on him now and walking away is a haunting phantasm that never truly leaves his mind. And it is no longer simply the pain he knows he will feel, but the fact that she needs his support more than ever. He is more afraid for her safety and her sanity than he has ever been, and he does not what method to try.
Those worries and fears all come to a head as he skids to the edge of the cliff face, behind a stunned, crushed-looking Mary Margaret and David, where he can clearly see Emma and Henry clinging tightly to one another frantically; panting, near tears, and much too close to the drop-off, but at first glance seeming whole and unharmed. He does not know where the rotten banshee who tried taking Henry has gotten to, has missed the entire showdown due to what he knows must have been Gold's trickery and machination with the shell and Henry's voice. He wanted to be there and have his Swan's back, but he feels intense relief to see that she seems to have done just fine on her own.
A rush of air brushes along his skin as Regina charges up behind him, nearly bowling them all over as she calls out her son's name in a voice harsh with desperation, clearly having been slowed by a similar deception to what fooled him. Killian merely steps back so that she can see her boy has been saved and reach him.
It is only as Regina falls to her knees on Henry's other side, pulls him into her arms, and Emma shifts back slightly, that he is hit by a jolt of fear upon getting a good first look at her face. The reddened irritation beneath her lovely eyes has taken on an even more pronounced hue, making her look angry and more than a bit unhinged. He takes a weak step forward, wishing to soothe, to comfort…but then she leans to peer over the edge. Killian realizes in a flash that Cruella must have gone off the precipice, that the villainess is truly finished, no longer a threat. However, he is frozen in place, a chill of foreboding running down his spine, when Emma turns in his direction once more.
Her gaze is unfocused, not resting on any of them, but turned inward as if contemplating what she thinks of Cruella's demise. Killian's heart does not truly splinter until he sees a small, ill-suited little grin of satisfaction sneak over Emma's lips…almost as if she is pleased with what she has done.
And he knows. Knows with the sinking certainty of one who has crawled back out of the pit and still clearly remembers the darkness' pull, that something inside of his beautiful Emma has turned. A bit of his Savior's shining, bright light has gone out.