A/N: This is a songfic based off of the song Taking Over Me by Evanescence. This is from Bella's POV and is supposed to be as if she were jumping off of the cliff to commit suicide.

Thanks to clairxdexlune for the awesome beta.

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or any of its characters. I also do not own the song Taking Over Me

Standing on the edge of the cliff, I contemplate everything I've been through in the last few months. Moving to Forks, Edward saving me from Tyler's van, James trying to kill me, Edward saving me from James, going to prom, my birthday, Jasper trying to kill me, Edward saving me from Jasper, Edward saying he doesn't love me anymore, Edward leaving. That's when things start to get a little fuzzy for a few months. I was there, and going through everyday things like school and work, but I wasn't really there. I was just going through the motions to make Charlie happy. And then Jacob, and the bikes, and hiking to find the meadow, the wolves, meeting the rest of the pack, Emily. So many things to think about.

You don't remember me but I remember you, I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you, but who can decide what they dream? And dream I do.

Why do I dream of him every night? All I do, is lie in my bed, sleeping. And in sleeping, dreaming. And in dreaming, dreaming of him. And in dreaming of him, dreaming of the horrible night he left me. That was the worst night of my life. Losing him was the worst thing to happen to me. I'll never recover from it. I know I promised him I would, but I can't. I can't even begin to think of how I could.

I believe in you, I'll give up everything just to find you, I have to be with you to live, to breathe, you're taking over me.

I have to find him. I know he's out there. And deep inside, I know, no matter what he said that he loves me. He has to. There's no way we could have gone through everything we did, without him loving me. I have to be with him. Without him, I'm not alive. I'm just an empty, breathing shell of a person who used to have a life. And breathing isn't the easiest thing anymore. They say something that's incredibly easy is like riding a bike, or like breathing, but what happens when your breath has left your body for good, and you're left struggling for survival? I'd willingly die just to hear him say he still loves me.

Have you forgotten all I know and all we had? You saw me mourning my love for you and touched my hand, I knew you loved me then.

Has he forgotten everything we've been through together? When the van almost hit me, when James was trying to kill me, when Jasper was trying to kill me. Maybe that's why he ultimately left. He was tired of saving me from life. Or maybe he was tired of saving me from myself. I know that if he could see me now, mourning the loss of my one true love, he'd regret leaving because he still loves me. He has to. He just has to.

I look in the mirror and see your face if I look deep enough so many things inside that are just like you, are taking over.

When I look at myself, I can't help but see him with me. For so long, we were inseparable. Always together, just the two of us. That's the way it should still be. What's worst of all is the fact that his love, or what once was his love, is still taking over me. Not just part of me, all of me. I drown in what used to be.

I believe in you I'll give up everything just to find you I have to be with you to live to breathe you're taking over me.

And just before I take that step, the one where I'll be leaping off of a cliff, I hear his voice. My beautiful imagination allows me one last glimpse into what was. One last glimpse into what happiness felt like, what my life used to be. And lost in my thoughts, I take the last step off the cliff, listening to his voice, pleading and scolding me the entire way down. And as I hit the water, I'm lost in my once happy thoughts, and I don't see Jacob jumping in to save me. For a few short moments, I'm happy in the fact that I'm dying to avoid the pain I've lived through. I've broken my promise to him, but he broke his promise to me as well. "It will be as if I never existed." Well he's never left my mind, and so I'm silencing my mind for the first time in months. If death is the only way to do this, then that's a promise I'm willing to break. And as I drift lower in the waves, just like Edward, the water is taking over me. "I love you Edward."