I do not own anything they belong to . I have changed this story. It is about Bella and Jasper. It covers New Moon through Breaking Dawn. Please RxR and let me know what you think.

Summary

Bella has finally realized that Edward is never coming back, she trys to run away from her problems to only be met by two visitors she never thought that she would see again.

Bella's POV

It had been six months since he had left me. I could still not bring myself to say his name, I was not sure I would ever be able to say his name for the pain was just to great for me to bear. I had finally come to realize that he would never be coming back, was it because it had been six months with out even a single message from him or his family. His family was what hurt me the most. I had always known that I was never good for him. But the family made me feel like I was one of them. Esme had been the mother I had always wanted unlike Renee who was more like my child. Charlisie had shown me what love a father can bring to his daughter. I am not saying Charlie was a bad father but he was just never really there for me. Emmett was like the older brother I always envisioned having instead of the younger sister my mother was now caring. Rosalie was the… well I am not quite sure where she fit into my life but she was there, even though I knew that she hated me. I was still at a loss as to why that was. Alice felt more like my twin sister that was to polar opposite to me. She was on of the ones I missed the most. And Jasper… well I am not sure I know enough about him to place him in the family but he was like that last piece of the puzzle that just made to feel complete.

Those first few weeks after they left were the hardest. I woke up every night screaming because of nightmares. I am still not sure what they were about, I mostly forgot them the minute I woke up. After the third week Charlie called Renee because he did not know what to do with me. When she arrived she told me that I was to come back with her to Florida and spend time with the baby she had just found out she was having. Of course that woke me up, I did not want to have to raise her child and I knew that that was what was going to happen. And also I know that if I went to Florida I would never see him or the family again, since the sun was always shined in Florida. I flat out told her that I was not leaving, that I loved Fork's and I wanted to spend more time with Charlie. I promised both of them that I would get better, and I made sure of that.

A month later…

I still could not believe how happy I was becoming. I no longer thought about him all day every day. I had started to hang out more with Jake, Billy's son, but at times I did feel guilty about leading on Jake. I could see that he was falling in love with me. And I did not feel the same, I saw him more as a brother then a lover. But I could not let him down, he had been the light in my dark days.

I was driving out to Jake's house to hang out while he worked on his new car. As I passed the cliffs I saw him and the boys. I knew the boys that were with him, I had met them only a week ago when Jake had told me his secret. Werewolves. His friends were not to happy with the fact that I knew, but they realized that if I was able to keep the Cullen's secret even after what he had done to me then it was fine.

"Hey Vampire Girl." Embry called towards me. I had always like Embry since I met him. He was one of the five that really like me as well. Sam being the leader worried the most about me knowing about them but I told him that they were safe with me. Quil was happy that I finally found out, I had met him the first time I had come to the beach a year ago. Paul was still mad that I knew, he was the most hot-headed person I had ever known, and that is saying a lot when I know Rosalie Hale, the day he found out I knew, he and Jake got into it and he had come out of the fight with a broken arm. And Jared was just there, he did not care one way or the other.

"Hey Embry, what were you thinking jumping off that cliff, you could have died." I told him.

"Silly Bella, you forget what we are?" Jake said as he fluffed up my hair. Yeah I guess I had. "Well still… whatever… I want to try sometime. I can see a cliff that is not that high." I told the five of them.

"Well maybe some time I will take you up. But not today we have some business that we need to take care of. I know you just got here but I have to leave. Do you want me to come by your place when I am down?" Jake asked me. I had to look up at him since he was well over 6'5". "Yeah Jake that is fine."

I walked back to my truck; I didn't really want to go home. I hated being by myself, that was the only time I thought about him. It was then that I saw the turn off to the home I had not see in almost seven months. Part of me just wanted to keep driving but the other part of me told me to go and see the house. That way I could see that he was indeed never coming back for me. I could tell that the road had not been driven on in a while. I should have turned around then, but I needed to go farther.

I could finally see the house in the clearing. The grass was over grown and the house was dark. I climbed out of my truck and walked up those very steps where he had told me that he loved me and that he would never leave. I took one look inside the house and saw that it looked the same way it had over seven months ago. It was like nailing the final nail in the coffin. I felt my heart finally hit the floor. I could not believe that I had been holding on to the hope that he would come back. Silly Bella, you were never good enough for him. I got back in my truck and started it. What was I going to do, go home and cry until I ran out of tears, or go back and wait for Jake. I decided that neither of those sounded good. I just wanted to run away and never come back to this place. I loved my father but I did not want to be here anymore. I had to get away.

I drove back to the La Push beach and looked at the cliff. That was it I would jump in and swim away. I got out of my truck and headed up the cliff. I remembered the cliff that they had jumped off of and saw that there was one higher up. That was it that is where I would jump from. I climbed all the way to the top and looked down at the water. I love you! Was all I said as I jumped.

When I finally opened my eyes I felt like I had been beaten with a metal bat. I was so sore all over. I tried to move but I couldn't.

"It is ok you are safe now." I could hear someone say. I looked to my left and saw Jake sitting there. "How did I get here?" I whispered.

"You jumped off the cliff and I jumped in and got you out. That was so stupid Bella. I told you I would take you, what were you thinking?"

A single tear fell down my cheek. "He is really never coming back." Was all I could say.

"Stupid bloodsucker, still hurting you after almost seven months" Jake spit out through his teeth.

"It is not his fault, I was never good enough for him, and I knew it. Jake can you just take me home. I know it is getting late and I need to cook Charlie dinner. I will be fine." I added from the look on his face. We climbed in my truck and drove back to my house. I told him that he could stay until my dad got home but he told me that he had business back home he had to take care of.

I was standing in the kitchen making Charlie's dinner when I heard a knock on the door.

"Jake, you don't have to knock, you know you can just come in," I said as I reached the door. I opened it to see the last two people I thought that I would ever see again.

"Alice…Jasper…!" Was all I could get out before everything went black.