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Dear Diary,
Well, today was interesting. Dom asked Letty to marry him. He did it over a car! Ha! That's Dom all over. They were both working on Dom's supra and while he was working under the bonnet, and she was lying underneath the car, he just came out with it. It wasn't very romantic but when has my brother ever been the romantic type? It's nice to see everyone celebrating after all that shit with the trucks. But less about that.
I know I should be happy, and I am really, but it all just hurts too much. The thought of love and being with someone forever. Everything still reminds me of him. I miss him so much. And it was his old supra that they were working on and I cant walk in there and see it without thinking how it might be if he were still here with me.
Sometimes I don't know how I feel. Angry because he was deceitful, upset because he only got to know me through lies and pretending to be someone he was not, someone who wasn't trying to put my brother in jail. I wonder if he really did love me or not. I mean, why would he? He only set out to use me in the first place. Surely his motives didn't change. But then I remember that he did change, he turned into one of us. He didn't turn the gang in. It all rested on him really didn't it and he stuck by his new friends. But not anymore, he left. I try to tell myself that he couldn't possibly have stayed because of all that had gone on, but he left me and if he loved me how could he? It's been 4 months now. I didn't even get a goodbye. Oh fucking listen to me, I'm going on about that shit when its all over and there really is no point in crying and I should really just get over it and its been a happy day here really. With Dom and Letty.
I am happy for them, really happy. They deserve a bit of happiness. It's been such a good atmosphere here in the house. Corona's flowing and music pumping. And I beat Vince at GT! Ha! The house is still full downstairs but I needed to get away, just enough alcohol always makes me thoughtful. That's about the only time I have written in here recently, because after that, more alcohol just gets me smashed and I crash out. The alcohol has soothed the pain. Oh fuck this, I might go and join them again. I promise I'll be happier tomorrow night, after the hangover of course.
All my love Diary, Mia xxx
Dear Diary,
Well, today was interesting. Dom asked Letty to marry him. He did it over a car! Ha! That's Dom all over. They were both working on Dom's supra and while he was working under the bonnet, and she was lying underneath the car, he just came out with it. It wasn't very romantic but when has my brother ever been the romantic type? It's nice to see everyone celebrating after all that shit with the trucks. But less about that.
I know I should be happy, and I am really, but it all just hurts too much. The thought of love and being with someone forever. Everything still reminds me of him. I miss him so much. And it was his old supra that they were working on and I cant walk in there and see it without thinking how it might be if he were still here with me.
Sometimes I don't know how I feel. Angry because he was deceitful, upset because he only got to know me through lies and pretending to be someone he was not, someone who wasn't trying to put my brother in jail. I wonder if he really did love me or not. I mean, why would he? He only set out to use me in the first place. Surely his motives didn't change. But then I remember that he did change, he turned into one of us. He didn't turn the gang in. It all rested on him really didn't it and he stuck by his new friends. But not anymore, he left. I try to tell myself that he couldn't possibly have stayed because of all that had gone on, but he left me and if he loved me how could he? It's been 4 months now. I didn't even get a goodbye. Oh fucking listen to me, I'm going on about that shit when its all over and there really is no point in crying and I should really just get over it and its been a happy day here really. With Dom and Letty.
I am happy for them, really happy. They deserve a bit of happiness. It's been such a good atmosphere here in the house. Corona's flowing and music pumping. And I beat Vince at GT! Ha! The house is still full downstairs but I needed to get away, just enough alcohol always makes me thoughtful. That's about the only time I have written in here recently, because after that, more alcohol just gets me smashed and I crash out. The alcohol has soothed the pain. Oh fuck this, I might go and join them again. I promise I'll be happier tomorrow night, after the hangover of course.
All my love Diary, Mia xxx