So this is my first Alice in Wonderland story. Please be kind

I have called it Wonderland instead of Underland on purpose, so don't flame me about that, but other than not owning any other character, happy reading…xxx

I stared in amazement and grinned at Chessur who was hovering besides me.

"What is he doing?" I laughed.

"Futterwacken." He smirked.

I remembered a distant conversation Chessur and Tarrant had about the Futterwacken and Frabjous day. Tarrant had said he was rather good at it and even though I had no idea what the dance went like, I doubt Tarrant's version was anything but perfect.

I edged closer, dodging his limbs that were flying everywhere, enjoying myself as much as he seemed to be.

Abruptly the dance stopped and I only had a second to register the grin on his face before Tarrant grabbed me by the arms and pulled me against him, smashing his lips against my own.

I had been kissed before, but never like this. My eyes were wide with shock as his surprisingly soft lips moved almost desperately and through that connection, I could feel every emotion he put into it. His arms slid to my waist and pulled us more firmly together. We fit together like two pieces of a puzzle. He continued to kiss my lips and pull us closer, and then I was kissing him back. I felt his lips curve upwards when I finally responded. My eyes closed and I let myself be taken away in the moment. I felt content for the first since my father had passed and a longing to do whatever it took to stay with his man forever.

But I couldn't stay. I had obligations back home. A family who I couldn't just leave hanging. Staying would be one of the most selfish things I've ever done.

I sighed and gently pulled away. We were both breathing heavily. A smiled played upon the Hatters lips and his eyes were somewhere else. I heard a small sigh and turned to see Chessur comforting Mallymkun. Despite the rough relationship we had, I would still miss the little dormouse. I would miss everyone. They were like family to me.

The White Queen approached me, a vial of violent purple liquid in her hand.

"And blood of the jabberwocky. Alice, you have our everlasting gratitude. And for your efforts on our behalf."

She held out the little vial and I cautiously took it.

"Is this the way home?" I asked.

A part of me wanted the answer to be yes, but something else inside me needed it to be no.

"Drink." Was all the queen said.

I briefly shut my eyes and prepared myself. My home waited for me. My mother, my sister. They needed me. Wonderland needs you too. A voice in my head whispered, but I quickly dismissed it.

I lifted the vial to my lips, popping open the lid and tipping it back. The liquid ran down the glass towards my open mouth…

"Don't."

I pulled the vial away quickly before the blood reached the end and whipped around to see the Hatter, a broken look on his face, his eyes begged me to stay.

"What?" I whispered.

"Stay with us." He said, the ghost of hope lingering on his features.

I gasped. I had dreamed of staying. But it was a mad, crazy idea and a dream is all it ever would be to me. I never imagined anyone would ask me to stay as a serious question.

I began shaking my head.

"I wish I could. But there are questions I have to answer. And things I'm late for doing."

I watched as Tarrant's face dropped. His bow tie once again fell loose and the buzz of electricity that always seemed to surround him disappeared. I tried to tell him I was sorry with my eyes, as I lifted the vial and tipped the liquid down my throat. I shuddered.

"You won't remember me." he said sadly

"I will!" I defended. If I went back home, the one thing I would make sure I took with me was the memory of wonderland.

Tarrant stepped forward and kiss me again. It wasn't as passionate as the first, it was gentle and full of love. Love. Before I had time to consider this idea, he whispered in my ear;

"Fairfarren, Alice."

"Fairfarren, Tarrant." I whispered automatically.

I looked at everyone's faces and raised my hand in a wave goodbye.

"Fairfarren all."

I looked back at Tarrant. Tears pricked in his eyes. My vision suddenly became blurred with tears as I noticed his hand was over his heart. He lifted his hand and blew on its flat palm. He was giving me his heart. He loved me. He loved me!

I raised my hand to catch his hand, a smile spreading across my lips. I leaned forward to grab his hand.

"I lo-"

I grasped and staggered forward. I quickly regained my balance and looked at my hand. Nothing was enclosed in my fist. Only air. I spread my fingers slowly, shaking as I turned my hand so I could see my empty palm. I shook my head.

"No."

I whirled around and took in where I was. I was back home. This wasn't happening. But it was. I could see the mansion and the party and the crowd of people still waiting for my return. Hadn't I wanted this? To return home to my family and friends? I thought back and remembered something I had said to myself about the inhabitants of wonderland. They were like family to me. I had just run away from my true family. From the man I was quickly realising I was in love with.

Tears began to escape from my eyes and I ran to the rabbit hole. There was no disruption amongst the greenery. No hole. It was almost as if it had never existed.

I collapsed to the ground and sobbed.

"No! Let me back! Tarrant!" I thumped the place where the hole used to be, but it was no use. I had drunk the blood. The deed was done and now I couldn't return.

So, what do you think? All reviews appreciated.

xxx