A.N: Skins ff. Basically based on chap 4 series 4. Though I made a few changes. I do not own Skins, Katie, Emily, or any character here.

Katie

My room was a mess. Everything was a mess. Since Emily left, our family had been ruined. Well, not literally ruined, but sort of. I'm not blaming her, though. I'm just setting a fact related to that other fact, if that makes any sense.

I don't really know what's going on between my parents, they just won't stop yelling at each other. Anyway, I should be on my way right now. Not wasting my precious time on choosing what to wear, while I think about my sister. Again.

The blonde was looking at herself in the mirror. Asking her dresser, which was my mother, if she looked unreal enough. What was that supposed to mean? However. I couldn't stand the way she treated me as if I was her best friend. She knew nothing about me, Nothing at all.

The wedding dress made her look pretty fat, I didn't say anything though. Everything had to be perfect. And that was my job. To make sure everything was perfect with the first client of my mum's new company, ''Let's get Fitch.'' Funny name, isn't it?

''It's perfect.'' I said, emotionless. The blonde smiled at me.

''Kate, why don't you come to the party tonight? Maybe you'll get some ideas there.'' Her mother told me. 'The name's Katie, and I'm not really interested in going to your fucking whores party.' I wanted to reply, instead, I said ''Sure.'' And fake smiled back at her.

My dad's work wasn't going really well, I ignore the reasons. And, whatever the blondie bride considered a ''deserved-pay'' was going to be our sustent this month. So I had to be nice with her.

Back at home, I went to Em's and I room.. Well, just mine. At the moment. I really missed her. And she knew it. I even said ''Please don't leave me.'' In our own twins-language. But she had the right to leave. Mum had been unkind with her ever since she told us she was fucking a girl. I'm pretty sure she's living with her right now.

As I went to the bathroom, in order to wash my perfectly fake face, I saw an unopened tampons box. I heard my mother was going to the pool with Brandy's –The bride, I saw her name on her necklace when we left.- mother. But, tampons? I was confused. Our periods were always on the same dates.

I sneaked into her room. I knew she had a calendar where she marked all the first period's day somewhere. It wasn't hard to find. Actually it was under the bed. February 16 was marked in a red circle. Today was 18. I was five days late. And I also had a new boyfriend, with whom I spent several nights.

''You should go to the doctor. Right away.'' He told me. I was scared, but I did as he said.

The nurse put a tissues box on the table after I was examined. I stared at it. Before I could think on what that meant, she said. ''I'm afraid to tell you you're one of the uncommon, premature-menopause cases. I'm so sorry hun.''

''Oh.. ah. Shit.'' I said nervously. I felt stupid for not knowing what that meant. At least I wasn't pregnant.

''I know it's difficult, but you'll have your familie's support, I'm sure, and everything's going to be alright. Besides, adopt..- I interrupted her.

''Adoption? What are you talking about?''

''You don't know what menopause is, do you?'' She waited for my response. As I didn't say anything, she continued. ''Means you're unfertile. You won't be able to have kids.''

''What?.. But there are pills for that right?''

''I'm afraid not..'' She said, and handed me the tissues once again. I didn't take them. I was trying to process all the information I 've just received.

My boyfriend didn't hear a single word of what I said, he wasn't serious. He was never serious.

''Fuck off.'' I said, and I went home alone.

I wanted to tell my mum my not-so-good news, since Emily wasn't here, and James was too young for these things. He wouldn't understand. She didn't hear me, she was too busy yelling at my dad, as usual; so I just went to my room once again. I had to get ready for the hen party, it was in about an hour, and I no longer had a boyfriend to take me there.

As I had thought, the party was full of blonde heads.

''Oh look who's here, my B-F-F!'' Brenda said to her friends. She was wearing Danny's number shirt. Danny, the football player. Danny, my ex-boyfriend.

''You know what, Kate? Danny said my tits were bigger than yours. He likes that.'' She winked at me, God she was disgusting, I was about to complain, but her mother came out of nowhere.

''Brandy, sweetheart. I didn't invite Kate to socialize, I brought her to work. Okay?'' She left, actually all the absent minded blondes left.

I went straight to the stairs, I could see a wine bottle there. I wasn't an alcohol fan, though I took a sip of it anyway.

I saw Brandy and her mother on stage. She was saying a lot of things, like how proud she was of her daughter, who was just 18 and was already getting married. I wasn't really hearing, until she said ''And the baby's fine too!''

''Mum.. that was a secret..'' she muttered.

I didn't want to have kids. I was pretty strong and I never cared about anything. But somehow the word ''baby'' felt like a punch on the back. Probably because that was the only thing perfect Katie would never have.

I headed off to the bathroom, the wine bottle still on my hand. I couldn't cry, I didn't want to. When I was about to leave, Brandy came in.

''He'yah having fun?'' She asked as she took the bottle off my hand and had a big sip of it.

''Hey! You're not supposed to drink when you are pregnant!'' I yelled.

She looked at me and smiled. ''I do what I want, hun.''

That made me really mad, I wasn't sure why. Seeing her dumb face, drinking alcohol while her friends cheered her. That just pissed me off.

''You're on my way. Get the fuck off.'' I said to one of her friends, that was standing in the middle of the bathroom's exit. She mocked me, and let me pass.

''Blimey, what a surprise.'' Effy and Freddie were out there. Yes, what a surprise. ''Wanna have a drink with us?'' she said, patting the sofa, I took that as a ''Sit down here next to me.''

''Are you kidding me?'' I said, not so kind. How dared she talk to me as if we were such a good friends, after she made me go to the hospital?

''Hey Kate. Go and bring us some more spliffs, huh? And don't forget the beer this time.'' The girl that mocked me before was standing behind me, She was obviously drunk, I could tell for her breath smell.

''Look, I'm not your fucking servant, okay? You can have your stuff yourself.'' After I said this, she pushed me, making me fall on Freddie's lap.

I was so angry. No one had ever embarrassed me like that before. I followed her to the dancefloor, and made her fall by putting my heel on her way.

She threw all the beer in a boy's shirt. She looked at me, still on the floor, she was almost crying of anger.

''Who the fuck do you think you are?''

''I'm Katie fucking Fitch, who the fuck are you?''

I left. I didn't want to be there anymore. I'm sorry, mum. I just wouldn't let myself fall that deep.

I sat on a corner outside. My face was probably a mess.

''Hey.''

''Hey..'' Since when Effy was so kind to me?

She offered me a cigarette. I don't smoke. I never did, I took one anyway.

''Easy girl.'' Effy said patting me on the back. I just had an embarrassing cough attack.

I smiled at her. I couldn't help it, I knew she was trying to be nice with me since our last incident.

''I don't know who I am anymore.'' I said. Effy chuckled. ''Well. You're Katie fucking Fitch, aren't you?'' I chuckled too.

James was on the stairs, covering his ears. My mother was quiet. So was my father. ''We are broke. We have to leave now.''

We made our bags, and went to the car before the people that was supposed to sell our house came. My mother was too angry to listen. My father lost his job. Actually everything. They got out of the car, we were in the middle of nowhere, but yelling time can be anywhere, can't it?

James and I watched, heared them. I took his hand, and he pressed his' tightly against mine. ''Everything's going to be fine.'' I told him.

I went towards them, made them hear me.

''I'm taking the children to the airport.''

''Mum-..''

''What? Where are you going?''

''To my mother's house! Where else I'm supposed to live?''

''Plea-''

''You can't do that!''

''Oh no? Watch me.''

''Would you please listen to me?!'' I yelled. They both looked at me, and I knew James could hear me from where he was. ''I know a place.''