This is my very 1st attempt at a Fan Fic, I found my inspiration from NCG, ObsessedRomantic, Whitelilly0989 and so many other great writers on the site.

Please read and review – feedback always welcome.

Anna x

It had been 1095 days since they had last seen each other, a whole 3 years today and she really couldn't let it go on any longer than that. In fairness it had already been too long and keeping herself locked away so no one could see them just wasn't working out any more.

Something had to change if she was going to get on track and be able to set up a good life for them and she was the only person who could make any changes. So, today was the day she was going back, the day that she was going to tell them everything. She just hoped it wasn't going to bring everything crashing down around her.

The heat was unbearable on site today but it's my job to make sure nothing slows them down, that they are ahead of deadline. Well at least that they hit target, failure is not an option.

My name is Ryan Atwood and I have been lead Architect with Laing Associates in Seattle for 1085 days now, and it's been 1099 days since I last saw her. I miss her each and every day – I wonder if she ever thinks of me. It was my choice to take the job and her choice not to come with me, she was studying Forensics and Criminal Psychology at Berkeley. It was her final year and there was no college in Seattle that offered the course.

At the time I thought there would be no question in her coming or not, I thought that she loved me and would follow me anywhere so when I gave her the ultimatum of coming with me or breaking up I thought my heart had been ripped out when she said she would miss me.

At the time I felt like she was being unreasonable not supporting me, I never once thought about how unreasonable I was being not even considering her career or the fact that I expected her to just walk away from all that hard work with only a year to go.

There are days over the last 3 years that I can't even remember what my life was like with her because I have worked so hard to shut it all out. But it's the season, the time of year that brings it all back – the day I walked away from the most important person in my life without even a second thought. When it starts to frost up a bit and there is a chill in the air it reminds me of arriving in Seattle without her and wishing she was here to keep me warm and safe.

Its wrong for me to think of her now, I moved on with my life and I'm sure she has as well. 2 years ago Taylor came back from France saying she was divorcing Henri-Michel for the 2nd time in her life and that she had made a mistake, well I was lonely and she knew me so I asked her out. Now we are planning our wedding, Taylor Townsend will be Taylor Atwood in 8 weeks time, she is so excited!

I wonder if she found someone else, if she got married, I wonder if she thinks of me.