Chapter 1:

...I'm Growing Numb For You...

His pale cold hands ran through my hair, I looked in his dark eyes and sweetly smiled at him."Yes Pip?"He asked me wrapping his finger in my blonde hair.I softly kissed his lips and asked a simple question,"Do you love me?"with no hesitantion,He stopped and untangled my hair,then sighed."Look...my pip,I-I d-don't know."I shook my head and sat up.

He told me to talk to him after about 5 minutes of got off the silky bed and rubbed his temples."Look,Pippers,Just stop making this hard...".Oh how I keep fucking things turned to look at me and shouted,"It already is!!"I saw his once soft dark eyes turn red and slightly sad but really was surely was getting mad."Oh,sure,Damien...i-if thats how y-you feel."Why would he say such a thing?

He quickly got out of the room and then I heard the front door slam loudly,I jumped."Fuck fuck fuck fuck."I repated.I changed for Damien,I wasn't...Pip!The loser girly ,I'm not even french,i'm I am Pip!The emo-fag thats the uke of a gay relationship!My hair is still blonde,but my haircut changed,it was a bit like Kennys,and my pale blue eyes grew that even possible?I dressed in black shirts,different everyday.I wore converse,I put on eyeliner for the love of.i changed only for him!Why couldn't he just love...like me the way I was?Well,he did,but I could tell he was embarssed of how girly I was,since we were gay right?

I got off of his bed and put on my cons again.I took my cell phone and coat from his floor and walked out of the evil house he called his...gay sex did he just run out of his own house?I thought fingers grew numb from being exposed to the cold for so long and my house was pretty far from hasn't snowed,but it sure as hell was cold.I dugged my hands in my coat pockets and breathed in the thickening air. My cell phone vibrated,right on my ass and saw that 'My Damy Poo' just called.I sighed and turned off my phone putting it back on my back jean pocket.I stopped at a small park near South Park Middle School,were I got my first kiss from Damien,almost made love to Damien,god back then,well right up until about 10 minutes ago,it was aaalll about Damien!Damien Damien Damien!I sat on the cracking swing seat and swayed back and throat grew numb from breathing the coldening air and when I exaled, a puff of gray fog came out.I got light headed from going up to high and suddenly the swingset seat broke,making me fall right on my ass, breaking my delicate and cheap cell phone.I groaned and got up again."Pip?"A voice called from the slide which was 6 feet away.I looked at the blurred figure,it was dark and my eyes just started to sting.I think the cold got to me."Oh,Pip!"The figure ran up to me to embrace me in a hug.I felt the heat from his body and the voice was male,but it didn't sound like Damien's sexy one."S-Stan?"My eye's cleared up and out revaled the 6'1',200 pound,that was all muscle...Stan Marsh,My height and weight didn't even compare to his.I was 5'6' and weighed around 125 pounds,gosh i'm so puny.

"Pip...its been so long."He was right,it has been.3 years since i've seen my only took out a cigartte and lit it up.I felt the heat come from it and let the warmness gave the lighter to me ,then weed and breathed."Still with Damien?"I put my cold lips to the cig and inhaled it,letting its stench cover my breath.I exhaled and gave it back to him,before coughing a bit,that is."Uhm,I don't think so."Gosh,this cold was really really getting to frowned and looked down."I,um."He stayed silent for only a moment."So are you...free this sunday?"He asked,his cheeks were turing red,from the coldness or he was blushing.I smiled at him and softly answered gave me a hug and took off the opposite direction.

My eye's felt heavy after that,but I went on and walked but my head started to feel light again.I couldn't feel my body,I felt numb almost every were,My throat was awfully sore and my vison grew weak. Suddenly,I hit the cold damp ground,unable to move,yet I was still woken.I tried to call out for help but my voice was eye's slolwy closed and I felt a agonising pain shoot through my head.

That was last thing I remebered...