Sirius's Letter
An:
Written completely what if?? What if Sirius and James had told Dumbeldor of the
secret keeper switch? would everyone be better off?
Disclaimer: you know....
To whoever cares.....
I sit here. An empty shell. A nothing. 15 years and I have still not really gotten
over it. Sure, it wasn't my fault, or was it? If I hadn't been the chicken-shit that I
am, they would be alive, and Harry would live with them. No, this is horrible. I
am no role model. I mope around all day, the anti-depressants have stopped
working. Harry, dear sweet Harry... why are you so evil? Was it because I
spoiled you? I didn't ask for this Harry. I didn't want them to go. You have
Gryffindor blood in you Harry. Not slytherin. Why are you so horrible, your so
great at Quidditch, yet you still hexed your way onto the team. You could have
got in by talent, if you had tried out. You don't need minions to love you Harry.
You don't need to brand people with your mark. You didn't need to get kicked out
of school, you didn't need to join him... who am I to talk? My eyes have long
since turned gray and dull, I know it too, I look like an Azkaban refugee, evil,
matted hair. Spirit-less. I need something to live for. I've lost almost all of my
powers, flooded them away in alcohol. And Lupin, why did I grow so distant?
Make him help me on a full moon, end up having him in biting range of that little
muggel girl? Why did they have to imprison him for it? I'm alone. No one here.
Why did I tell Dumbeldor? I would have been better off if I has died. I deserve
Azkaban. I never did anything right, not since they died at least. Or did I ever? I
live in an empty shell, alone and in the dark.
Sirius
An:
Written completely what if?? What if Sirius and James had told Dumbeldor of the
secret keeper switch? would everyone be better off?
Disclaimer: you know....
To whoever cares.....
I sit here. An empty shell. A nothing. 15 years and I have still not really gotten
over it. Sure, it wasn't my fault, or was it? If I hadn't been the chicken-shit that I
am, they would be alive, and Harry would live with them. No, this is horrible. I
am no role model. I mope around all day, the anti-depressants have stopped
working. Harry, dear sweet Harry... why are you so evil? Was it because I
spoiled you? I didn't ask for this Harry. I didn't want them to go. You have
Gryffindor blood in you Harry. Not slytherin. Why are you so horrible, your so
great at Quidditch, yet you still hexed your way onto the team. You could have
got in by talent, if you had tried out. You don't need minions to love you Harry.
You don't need to brand people with your mark. You didn't need to get kicked out
of school, you didn't need to join him... who am I to talk? My eyes have long
since turned gray and dull, I know it too, I look like an Azkaban refugee, evil,
matted hair. Spirit-less. I need something to live for. I've lost almost all of my
powers, flooded them away in alcohol. And Lupin, why did I grow so distant?
Make him help me on a full moon, end up having him in biting range of that little
muggel girl? Why did they have to imprison him for it? I'm alone. No one here.
Why did I tell Dumbeldor? I would have been better off if I has died. I deserve
Azkaban. I never did anything right, not since they died at least. Or did I ever? I
live in an empty shell, alone and in the dark.
Sirius