Chapter 1 Lost

Everything was fine until I disobeyed him. If I listened to him then, he would still be here. I just had to sob like a baby and get it myself. This happened all because of that stupid stuffed animal! Like, how old am I, five? I'm sixteen for goodness sake! I just wish… I just wish… Ugh! I can't get mad at it… it's the only thing I have left that reminds me of him. Well, there are some other things… but this was the first he ever gave to me.

Ever since that day, I hadn't ever smiled, I've never laughed, and I rarely talked. I've locked myself into my own bubble, my own world. I've even stopped doing what I loved most, singing. It just reminded me too much of him to sing again. I wanted to scream. To just let it all out, but I've never had the courage to. Most people at my school thought there was something wrong with my voice so I couldn't talk anymore. My friends are still trying to turn me back to "my old cheery self" but that girl is dead, the girl that everyone new as the cute, funny, and energetic girl is dead. She's been replaced by me, cold, quiet, and dark. The girl known as Rin Kagamine is dead.

It all started 6 months ago. All that changed me had happened in one single day… I was on vacation, we were by the seaside. I love the sea... or used to.

"Hey! Give him back!" I cried, laughing. My dad was teasing me, saying I was too old for Mr. Cottontail, by stuffed rabbit.

I loved it, because he bought it for me the day I was born while my mother had bought my favourite white bow that always sits on the top of my head. I almost never take it off. It looked like bunny ears for me to wear on my head, and since I was just a newborn baby when I first wore it, we were about the same size and we matched each other. It just felt like it was made for me. Even if I WAS fifteen and it looked childish on me, I loved it as much as Mr. Cottontail.

"Rinny, when will you ever grow up?"

"But I love Mr. Cottontail!"

He chuckled, "Okay then," His cell phone rung, "Oh Rinny, stay here, I have to take this."

I listened and stood by the railing. The waves sounded relaxing, but they probably wouldn't if someone fell in.

There was a railing that prevents pedestrians from falling to their doom. The cliff leads to a deep sea with raging waves and pillars of sharp and rough rocks. Falling down there… would be hell.

The cool wind blew my white spaghetti strap sundress. My matching white sunhat needed to be held down to stay on my blonde head. Of course, my favourite bow is hidden under my hat. I looked around and watched the seagulls fly around me, underneath the hot sun. I was wearing sunscreen because I have fairly frail skin. I could be easily sunburned.

I sighed and leaned against the railing, waiting, and holding Mr. Cottontail tightly. Then I heard footsteps, I looked toward that direction finally relieved and smiling to see my dad, but was quickly replaced to see Lily followed by the phone freak, Neru. They go to the same high school as me, they're the girls in the school that can get almost anyone to freak out and become their followers. But whoever doesn't obey Lily immediately becomes her enemy and even has the power to turn everyone against them.

Lily is really tall like a model and I'm really short… She's really like a model. I hated to admit it, but she's kinda pretty. She's always followed by Neru, who agrees with everything she says, almost like a 'yes-woman'. Lily is said to be the 'Beauty Queen'. To me they're just called, Bossy Woman and Phone Freak, but I wouldn't DARE call her that. She already hates me enough. I'm such a coward…

"Haha! Look! Baby Nerd's on vacation!" I heard one of them call, "What are you wearing! So lame and childish!"

Just because I seem childish with my bow and Mr Cottontail and I'm actually pretty good in school, they have their own nickname for me…

I just look away trying to ignore their taunting, "Haha 'Daddy' isn't here to defend you I see," then she snapped me, "maybe he finally noticed the you're a loser and finally abandoned you. He really hates you I assume?"

I snapped, blood was rushing to my face and I was probably as red ad a tomato. I was grinding my teeth and I clenched my hands to form a fist. I squeezed my eyes shut then flung my arms up.

My eyes open wide in realisation. Mr Cottontail flew from my hands and was immediately caught by Neru, who was finally off her phone.

"Hmm? What's this…?" Neru asks.

"Pfffft! She's more of a baby than I thought!" Lily was bursting into laughter.

"G-give it back!"

"Hmm? It's important?" She grabbed Mr Cottontail from Neru, "Let's see how important exactly…"

"No…" thousands of things popped into my head of what she could do.

She puts on a devilish smirk as she simply tossed him down the cliff into the sea. SHE DID WHAT?

I stood there, wide eyed, watching, as Lily simply just walks away with Neru smiling. When they were finally gone, I finally snapped out of it and ran to the railing, tears filling my eyes. I was relieved to see it on a small, natural, platform by the side of the cliff. I could still get him! I quickly slip off my white flip-flops and climb over the railing, I was almost on that miniature cliff until I heard his voice. I complete ignored my dad and continued to climb down. I could hear him shouting for me to get back up. I didn't listen of course, and quickly climbed to the bottom and picked Mr Cottontail up, I squeezed him tight against my flat chest. Before I knew it, Dad has climbed down and was now in front of me, looking furious.

He nagged me, saying things like, "Why didn't you listen to me and stop?" and "Do you know how dangerous this is?".

Eventually he stopped and sighed as he saw my swollen eyes from crying about losing Mr Cottontail. He said, "Don't freak me out like that again… okay?"

I nodded.

He sighed again, then smiled reassuringly and picked me up easily. I was small and was pretty light. Compared to my dad, I was puny. He picked me up and I reached up to grab the railing at the top. I was pretty embarrassed because I was fifteen years old and seemed like a 8 year old being lifted like this. I got on back to the top, dusted my dress off, and put Mr Cottontail down so I have a free hand to help my dad. I sighed and took my time, isn't like he's going anywhere. I must be the unluckiest person alive.

Suddenly, I heard a large splash, my dress instantly became wet. There was a huge wave just now and I quickly looked down to find my dad, but he was no where in sight.

What have I done?