Take a step, falter. Try again, hit the ground. His ability to walk was fading as his body gave deeper into the intoxication.
"Are you okay?" Distant voices chanted in unison as he collapsed to the ground. Giving up on moving, he backed against the wall, giving a small sigh before a smile and nod.
"Why wouldn't I be?" He laughed, eyes remaining closed.
"Alec, you're drunk." A familiar face crouched down in front of him while trying to gain his attention.
"No, I am not. I barely had anything, really." His voice slurred slightly, but not enough to miss words.
"That's what most drunks say. Here, let me help you up and we'll find you somewhere to lay down." Isabelle gripped his hand and pulled his arm hard, leaving him upright once again.
"Shit Iz. Not so fast." He mumbled, rocking on his feet.
"Sorry." She laughed in reply while placing her hands on his shoulder to balance him out. Once the world stopped turning, and his vision straightened out, Alec went for his first step toward the hallway. The living room was a maze of furniture and people making this seem like an impossible endeavour. He was almost incapable of walking a couple steps forward, let alone having to walk around objects, lengthening the distance. Sucking in a deep breath, Alec ventured into the crowd with Iz at his side for precautionary reasons. Music was blaring, and literally shaking the walls as the bass hit, and they had strobe lights going off as well making every move a complicated one for Alec's already confused mind. He took one small, unconfident step at a time until he finally reached the kitchen, mere feet away from the hall to the bedrooms.
"I've been looking for you." Arms reached around his waist, and hair brushed by his neck. Alec didn't have to turn to look at the person. Their voice was as familiar to him as his own parents.
"Magnus.." He whispered flipping around quickly. His teeth dug into his bottom lip while he stared up into the glitter covered cat eyes he so often found himself getting lost in.
"Who else would it be?" Magnus straightened himself out and on his black jacket. For an ordinary mundane party, it surprising that the high warlock would even make an appearance, let alone dress so formally for the occasion.
"I thought you were done with me." Alec's voice almost disappeared by the end of the sentence as he looked down.
"I would never be done with you." Magnus' voice was confident as he lifted Alec's head with his fingers, and pulled his body into his. Alec fidgeted with his fingers, not sure what to take of the situation. This was not something he expected after the last time they met. Actually, his heartbreak was the reason he was even here, drinking for the first time. This was all too much but he knew he would give into Magnus, and all it would take was a look. One gaze into those eyes. One sweep of the face he loved so, and he was done. Taking a chance, Alec shoved their lips together, afraid this might be his last chance. Magnus immediately wrapped his arms around his waist, and pulled him closer. Forcing them into the closest wall, Alec pressed against him, deepening their kiss. His only reassurance that this was okay was the cold fingertips running up the back of his shirt up his spine but that was enough for him. The warmth of his body was all he needed to feel okay. He let out a hot sigh against his mouth and he pulled away slightly.
"I love you." He mumbled, Magnus' lips now travelling across his jaw. These were the moments he craved when he sat alone in his room. Alec reached his hands up, burying his fingers deep into his hair as his lips moved to his neck. His breathing picked up as he moved his head back, exposing more skin for him. His mind was giving into the pleasure when he suddenly pulled backwards hard by his sweater.
"What the hell are you doing, Alec? I turn my back for one minute, and the next thing I know you're practically getting it on with some stranger. At least have the decency to do that in private, away from my eyes." Iz lectured as she dragged him down the hall. Alec's eyes widened at the word stranger, and jerked his head back to the wall. Leaning against it was a tall lanky blonde, with short hair and dark brown eyes. He had a couple facial piercings, and wasn't the worst looking at the party, but he was no Magnus. "I never took you as the guy for a random hookup. I never thought I'd see you drunk though, and here we are." She continued while opening a door to a free room. Alec walked to the bed and just dropped, ready to start moping around again. His heart was starting to ache again.
"I thought it was Magnus." His voice shook as he buried his into the blankets. Isabelle took a seat next to him and set her arm awkwardly on his back.
"Are you really that hung up on him still. " She tried her best to sound calm but she was shaking with rage towards him. How could Magnus just leave Alec like that? Could he not tell how hopelessly in love with him he was?
"I see him in everyone, and I desperately grasp onto every moment that I have with him, even if it isn't real." Alec's voice cracked, making it apparent he was on the verge of tears. This is what love did. It broke people, even the strongest ones she knew. Love looked more like a curse than a blessing.
"Alec. Look what you let him do to you. You let him break you. You let him inside your mind and your heart, and he took advantage of that. He just left you, left you to become this mess you are now. You deserve better than that stupid warlock." Isabelle jumped up trying to emphasize her point.
"You don't get it Iz." Alec sat up, his fingers tightly latched onto the blanket. "This is my fault. Why do you keep blaming him for something that I did? If I had just trusted him, I wouldn't be here. I wouldn't be like this, but I am, and I deserve it. I broke myself. Do you understand? He isn't stupid. He is the best thing that had ever happened to me and I lost him at my own will, by my own decisions. I could be happy, lying on a coach at his apartment right now watching whatever mundane show that had captured his attention at the time, but I'm not. I'm here, and there is no one to blame but myself. "Alec yelled as he got up and made his way towards the door.
"Alec, where are you going?" Isabelle called out after him.
"Somewhere you aren't." He grumbled as he walked back into the party having sobered up enough to walk on his own. The blonde was still against the wall, as if he waiting for him. His eyes shifted to Alec before leaving after him. Isabelle let out a loud sigh.
"I just care about you." She whispered to herself as they both went out of sight.