"Greatest Fear"
by Bil!
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Author's Notes: This isn't from the point of view of any of the main characters - it wasn't intended that way and nor does it sound like any of them. It's just some unknown minor member of some unseen SG team.
"Greatest Fear"
Jaffa hold me down -
I fight,
I struggle,
hurling obscenities
in the hopeless hope
that I'll make them mad.
If I make them mad
they might kill me.
I would rather die,
rather DIE!
But they hold me down,
I cannot move.
Goa'uld speaks,
taunting,
as I snarl
in futile rage.
Goa'uld speaks,
threatening,
a zat is pointed
at my head.
Kill me! Kill me!
I'll tell you nothing,
I'll tell you nothing,
I'll tell -
Jaffa force me to the floor,
I fight with desperate strength.
Fear, the ultimate fear,
fills me, destroying me.
I know what comes next.
A slimy body slithers,
slowly, lovingly,
across the back of my neck.
I shudder,
but Jaffa hold me down.
Goa'uld laughs,
enjoying my fear.
I don't care.
I don't want it,
I don't want -
PAIN!
A red hot poker is being
driven into my neck.
A slimy body slithers inside me.
I scream.
I scream.
Fearpainragefearpain!
Where is my miracle?
Why is there no cavalry charge,
no white knight to rescue me?
Cold fingers scrape across my mind.
This can't be happening.
Cold fingers stealing my mind.
No, this isn't happening!
I sob.
It's happening.
Fear. Pain. Rage.
Fear.
Why don't they save me?
Why is there no one to save me?
Cold fingers take my body,
bring me to my feet,
dry my tears.
Cold fingers flicker through my memories,
and I am naked before
a cruel, harsh regard.
Cold fingers push me back and back
into the tiny corner that remains mine.
Why don't they save me?
Why don't I deserve rescue?
I'm so scared.
My body stands, walks, talks,
though I give it no orders.
I'm trapped in my own body,
trapped in my own mind.
I'm so scared.
So very scared.
Fin
Copyright 2002