I can't explain this,I'm pissed for Moonlight Desires and well this is my poetic outtake on what happenes next.So reveiw if you want,whateever.
Weak In Love
I can feel my heart racing
as I walk up the steps
My pulse pounding faster
and faster than the next
I kind of like the feeling
It feels like our first kiss
though it was a sloppy one
I barely captured your lips.
And surely you just smiled
and washed away my fears
And now I regret the fact
I wouldn't let you drown my fears
I know that I had shut you out
and kept my pain inside
the father you reacher out
the deeper in the closet I began to hide
And yet you gradually waited
and out I slowly came
I hate to admit it
I'm a sucker when you whisper my name,
I'm a sucker when you touch me
I'm a sucker when you lie
Because I just can't tell the differenec
I'm a sucker casue I still cry
And I'm weak because I love you
And I'm weak because I'm blind
Because I thought that we'd stuill be together
our life forever entertwined
And I'm weak because I'm stupid
Am I weak because I'm gay?
Am I weak for loving you so much
I'm sleepless through the days
I'm weak for falling in love
and I'm weak cause I still melt
and I'm weak cause I can't move on
I've never known how you've really felt
I'm weak because you said you love me
and I'm weak because I believed
all the lies that you brewed up
I wore my heart out on my sleeve
and you hid blue inked numbers along yours
and tagged the boys along
hidden behind locked doors
And I was locked out
Because I was so weak
All I could do was run
Because I couldn't breathe
and then you tried to save me
like you have before
No longer were you the same boy
that stood outside my door through
summer rain
and hurricanes
you said you'd never leave
I'm weak because I'm lonely
my heart's ripped off my sleeve I
'm at the top of the steps now
here I go,God 1 2 3
and there are those pretty blue eyes
your stairing back at me.
and God I just can't take it
I open up my mouth
Oh God I'm begging you please !
let the words come out
"Hey...Marco"You began
your voice makes me want to scream
but the words finally come out
I murmer "Here's your key"
and that is it I tell myself
I refuse to just look back
and yet I still do
and await for that heart attack
that never came
it never came
just you calling out my name
"Please oh God,please just stay"
I hear you say
Did you pray
I'd come back crying like last time
I turn around
and hear the sound
Are you crying?
Love is a crime
and it's my time my turn to sigh
"Sorry Dylan,this is good-bye"
Just don't cry
I now fear tears
thery're dirty and sinful
and still I hear you cry
"One more chance"You beg of me
"One chance is all I need"
Once chance is gone my love
my dear
I turned around to leave
The final straw t
his final chance
in this short termed boy romance
you call out "Love,I love you so,
I never wanted to let you go
I had to try
and live my life
I needed you not a wife
please don't go oh not this way,I'm begging you please
not today"
It's poetic the way you cry out so smoothly
and tears were meant to be caught
not this love
this love won't last
hopefully this was all for naught.
"But Marco"
"No"I cutyou off,
I turn around
my turn to scoff
"You break my heart
I can still bleed
you left me down upon my knees
and now your back
and expect me to
return the love I gave to you?
No
hell no
I will not do
All the things you ask me to
I ask of you just for love
not for cash
diamonds,drugs
you can't give that
just cheat instead
like when I had caught you in bed"
"A mistake my love
and surely you
once or twice have cheated too"
"No I wouldn't betray my love
I had for you it was too strong
atleast I thought so
now I know
I guess you wanted to let me go"
I turned around,
I'm ready to leave
I'm weak because I want to leave
"But Marco"
"No" I stop you now
"This is how it will just end"
I lost my lover
I lost my friend
I'm weak because I'm in love
I'm a sucker because your crying now.
and your weak because I turned around
and left you on your knees this time
We're weak because we're in love