A/N: this is Rax but hardly, its hardly ff at all tbh. Rosie writing about Max before they go to CT.

This is for you, my WAH fam and my reviewers (to DanH2010 esp.) because you guys are all important to me. I'm starting uni in two weeks so im sort of writing as Rosie, you are Max.

Its a bit of a ramble, not very organised, but thats me i ramble, and i'm disorganised. I've been planning to do this for a long time and i wanted it to be longer and better than it is but every time i try to redo it it comes out the same so i hope you don't mind!

But most importantly this is for two very special people. You two are two of the best friends I've ever had. It felt weird to write this tbh but kinda it felt right too.

Chloe and Nat. This is for you.

You'll still be there

To say I'm not nervous about going would be a massive understatement. I'm terrified. Moving on, leaving home, new city, new people, new life. But it's ok, because I know that you'll still be there.

I'll have to adjust, make new friends, learn new things. For you it's easy, you might not notice the change as much as me, you've been there before. It will just carry on like normal for you, in a way. But I'll be ok. Because you will still be there

When I come home you will be there Max, as you always are. You will still listen to my stories, my rants, you will still be the one on the receiving end of my rambling. Whether you listen or just thing I'm a daft cow I don't know, I don't really care either just as long as you are there.

I don't know how significant I am in your life but you're pretty important to me. You're there to turn to after a long day when I need help or advice. You're there to make me laugh and to make me smile. You show me things that I've never seen before and then I share with the rest of the world. You can brighten up my day like the sun brightens up the sky. The little things you do, that make me glad that I know you.

I don't know what I would do without you, because you mean so much to me. You understand me, the things I say, and the things I like, you understand me more than most people. I can joke and talk to you about things others just wouldn't understand. I bully you into things and you do the same back to me but I don't mind, it means I understand you even more.

I probably tell you loads of things you couldn't care about but I wouldn't know that because you don't show it. Because you're so kind back to me and you accept me. You are the one that I look forward to spending my evenings with, and it's because I know you'll be there.

And even if it's not then at that time, it's all the other times. You crop up in my life all the time, the small things I see and hear that make me think of you. Make me smile. The little key words and private jokes, I wouldn't want to share them with anyone else but you.

I don't want anything to change, when it happens. I don't want our relationship to change; if it does it can only get better right?

I don't want to lose you, ever. Because I love you.

You're my best friend. You mean the world to me.