Each chapter works pretty well as it's own self contained one-shot but there is an overall story. I kept time distances and setting mostly ambiguous so the reader can picture the scenes themselves and make their own decisions on where characters are in the stages of their relationship. I would be absolutely thrilled to see any readers comments on their interpretation. Each chapter is mostly just Rey and Kylo with a cameo but important appearance for General Leia in one chapter. I'll try to have a new chapter up everyday or every other day. Thank you so much for reading, let's be reylo trash together xx
Titles comes from Duran Duran song Save A Prayer (super cheesy I know but the words fit so well not necessarily the song itself).
Finally the work is dedicated to David Bowie, who really doesn't have much to do with Star Wars and I'm not sure how he'd feel about having a poor piece of angsty trash fanfiction dedicated to him, but oh well, I'm going to miss you my starman!
"Join me." Kylo asked, almost pleading with her, as their bodies pulled away.
Rey held her tongue, wanting to sigh, she'd heard this all before in every possible way there was to say it. "I can't." She turned her face away and closed her eyes.
"I need you." He said, sitting up slightly and leaning towards her.
She looked at him, a weak smile playing on her lips "I know. I need you too. I love you."
"Stay, be with me." He whispered, delivering fleeting kisses on her lips. He pulled back to look at her face, his jaw set, eyes glaring into hers. "There's only so much you can learn as a Jedi. Come to the dark side. I'll show you who you truly are, who you're meant to be."
Rey shook her head. "You know I can't, you that is not who I am." She gasped, trying to clear her mind. "I think if I could be turned to the dark side I would have done it already, I would have joined you." She fell into his arms, so afraid and yet so relaxed in his presence. "Never doubt what you mean to me."
"You do not love me." He said, his body stiffening. "If you did you would come with me. I see your mind, to you I am nothing more than a dull creature hiding in shadows."
She pulled back, staring at his face, trying very hard to fight the urge to slap him. "You are blinded by darkness."
"There is darkness in you too." Kylo snarled back. "Hatred, anger and fear. I feel it. You have so much power. But you don't use the half of it. Rey." His toned softened with the sound of her name on his lips, he tried to hide the fact that he was almost begging.
Rey softened a little too, the anger ebbed away, leaving only pain and sorrow. "I have no want for power." She explained. "And the darkness you feel is fear for you."
Kylo's head stirred, his eyes flashing upwards to meet hers.
Rey chewed on her lip, feeling the storm of emotions inside her. "You should not come to me. I know what they do to you. When you disobey your master's orders, when you return to him he tortures you. At night when I sleep I can see inside your head, I feel what they are doing to you, I feel your pain."
"I can endure the pain." He answered quickly. "The pain makes me strong with the force. And it is worth it for you."
Her quick tongue wanted to throw more spite at him for being so stupid. But then she paused and reflected on it. If the resistance were cruel, if they tortured her out of her lack of respect and disregard for orders she would endure. If she bowed under pressure it would mean pain for Kylo, and she wouldn't allow that. Pain for herself she could take, but not pain for Kylo. She'd shield him, the way he shielded her from the first order.
Rey sighed, letting her body fall back. In Kylo's presence she felt something beyond happiness, beyond enlightenment, it was everything. Yet at the same time she felt so much sorrow pressuring to overwhelm her.
Kylo crept over to her. His face gliding inches over her body, pressing his lips to her hair, her neck, her back.
"I want a way out of this as badly as you." He whispered, settling down next to her. "I can see it so clearly. You join me. And with your help I can destroy Snoke. And both of us will be free, no more sorrow, no more pain. Just you and me, and our love, and the galaxy at our feet."
She rolled over to face him. "I love you. It's true. You do know that?"
"Yes." He said and smiled, genuinely smiled, it was a rare sight even for her.
Rey pulled her body over his and kissed him, slowly, gripping onto him. "I love you. But I can't join you, I can't do that."