This is just a little experiment I wanted to try...a Diary from Rachel's point of view. I'm pretty sure it will have it's own plotline soon (St Berry most likely), but for now, in this one chapter, I'm just trying to get the right voice for the story. Please let me know if I should keep going!
Dear Diary,
To be completely honest, I always found keeping a diary childish. Why would you ever want to keep your feelings to yourself? Especially in a family like mine, where my feelings and opinions on things were so highly regarded! Therefore, there was never a need for me to write in a notebook my thoughts and feelings on things.
Until now.
Finn has reminded me many times that perhaps telling everyone what is wrong with their performances, and being verbally adamant that Mr. Schuster is constantly attempting to ruin my life isn't the best way to earn the respect I deserve from our fellow Glee club members. Though I see nothing wrong with sharing my years of experiences with, frankly, mediocre performers. Mike needs to realize that, yes, his duet with Tina was cute however, and that type of voice would never pass with the judges at Regionals. And he refuses to accept my help, just because he refuses to pay my tiny fee of $19.99 (I need to get to Julliard somehow)!
Finn explained that a diary is to hold your secrets (something he said he learned from Kurt, who has a diary of his own), I suppose I should at least give you one secret, my dearest diary. I am not a hundred percent sure we can win Regionals. We have absolutely grown as a team, and, with my superb talents, I know we are more than capable of taking second place just with my talents alone, but last year was a wake up call. What was a well deserved second, first, place performance, ended up being tragically ranked as third place. Third! I, Rachel Berry, have never settled for less than gold up until then, and I don't expect to have to do so again. But NO ONE WILL FOCUS! Quinn is too preoccupied with Sam, Kurt with Blaine, Puck with his community service (though I honestly don't understand his thinking that throwing garbage at cars is 'picking up trash'), and Brittany and Santana with Cheerios (and their sex is not dating relationship)! If the team would just put some of their focus into Glee, we could definitely show them what we could have done last year.
Vocal Adrenaline is nothing anymore. Not even with that Sunshine, who I am still amazed could possibly be shorter than I, especially with her gullible tendencies. People may say I was wrong for sending her to an inactive crackhouse, but honestly some of the blame has to be placed on her actually believing that a school club would have auditions in another place. However, the tiny singer aside, Vocal Adrenaline is nothing they used to be. Not without Shelby and certainly not without Jesse.
I am never one for, as I believe Mercedes would call it, dissing people, however Jesse has this diss coming. Despite my appreciation for his talents, (though never perfect, he was always as close as possible) what he did was unexcusable. I lo…was very fond of him, and for him to just rip my heart like that and do the choreography to The Bitch of Living on it, is just unacceptable. Because of that, I am ignoring all requests from UCLA to come for a summer program. That, and I am positive that within a few hours they would have me leading at least one class, and I just can not take on that responsibility when summers are strictly dedicated to working on my acting talents.
I suppose that is all I have to say today. Expect another tomorrow after I suffer through another one of Mr. Schuster's assignments. Maybe Finn was right. I should do this more often. Though I still don't like the idea of not sharing my opinions with everyone. I thought everyone always enjoyed hearing what I had to say!
Gold Stars,
Rachel Berry.