More drabbling yay.
She loves him. She loves him with all her heart it hurts. He was her first love. Except first loves were supposed to fade, right? Eventually it was supposed to stop hurting, stop feeling. She was supposed to stop crying, supposed to stop writing stupid poems about him and his fucking perfect hair. All of that was supposed to stop. Except it didn't. Even after nearly ten years it didn't stop. It wouldn't stop.
She wanted it to stop.
She pushed it to the side, waiting for it to die. Surely, Naruto had forgotten about her and moved on with Hinata, right? He forgot about his first love. So why couldn't she?
When she went to sleep at night, she tried dreaming of anything and everything but him—but of course, his stupid midnight eyes and raven black hair and perfect face kept popping up in her mind.
She begged, prayed for it to go away. She tried preoccupying herself with things, like missions, and a promotion as Head Medic-nin. She tried going out drinking with Ino and Tenten more often, tried flirting with Kiba and even humoring Lee. She tried all of that, but at the end of the day, when she was in bed alone with only herself and her thoughts, it went back to him.
She wanted it to stop.
She knew no matter how much she tried, she could never love another like she loved him. She hated knowing that the best (and worst) thing she could have, she could never reach. He was so far away. She hated knowing that she was never ever going to love someone as much as she loved him. She knew it was more than just her "first crush".
She wanted it to stop.
But it didn't. And she knew it never would.
SasuSaku is my NUMBER ONE OTP so it was surprising that I never wrote about it O.o anyway I hope u enjoyed!