Autumn

Chapter One

Rain can be the bearer of many things and emotions. Rain can bring happiness to those starved of food, and been seen as life to dehydrated crops. Rain can bring anxiety to the family of those who have trapped loved ones in a rainstorm, it can bring death…or life, happiness or sadness, hope and despair, borderm or excitement but to Leah Clearwater it brought shame and guilt.

Guilt came in the form of rainwater, pouring heavily from the darkened sky and seeping its way deep into her light olive skin that stretched over her toned body like a blanket, hydrating it shamefully. She was soaked through, her hair clung to her oval face, the blue tank she wore was now a shadow of deep blue, the white stubby, worn out trainers had a wet squiggy sole that soaked her black socks. A passer byer would probably think she took a dive into the sea by the way she looked.

The light 'plut' sounds the rain made as it encountered a surface sounded like a heavy 'thud' to her ears, as it was the only sound to be heard in the air of La push. Not a single car drove by or one forest animal could be heard. It was as if the entire tribe knew the rightful Alpha had been harmed.

Leah shoulders were slumped and her eyes were heavy lidded due to the rain, but focused entirely on the red door to the beige one floored house. The living room window had light seeping through to the dark evening outside, where Leah's foot moved a step forward, her eyes closed shut as she breathed out heavily. Fuck Leah! What is wrong with you? Can't you face your pack brothers? Those dick headed over sized man-child's. You have done nothing wrong…

Leah tried to tell herself. She had done nothing wrong, she never asked him to get involved to save her…

"NO! Leah don't." Sam warned her, the rest of the whole pack catching her plan in full HD.

"Shut up, I know what I'm doing." Leah hissed back. Inside the packs minds it was like being in a battlefield. Constantly.

"LEAH!" For the first time in Leah's life, she saw life in slow motion. The cringing scream played of out of Seth's mind. As Leahs, wolf head turned round she saw the blood red eyes of a newborn vampire, the brilliant white human teeth bared, his body in elegant flight, hands spread wide in a jazz hand copycat act. Leahs eyes widened, her whole body paralyzed in shock. Through out every pack member's mind a deafening roar was heard as Jacob Black wolf body came flying in front of Leahs view, and his huge paw knocked her body out of the way. However, the Vampires stone cold hard body quickly encountered Jacob's wolf form. Every wolf felt the bone crackling pain radiating off Jacobs mind who was experiencing it for real. Jacob growled in pain turning the heads of the Cullen's who were scattered far out in the woods along with a few people in La push before passing out.

The only words that could be heard in the packs mind were "Jacob…"

Leah slowly opens her eyes. The red door was still there despite her wishes and she still had to walk through it, to the twenty odd people whose eyes no doubt held hateful daggers that pointed towards her. They hated her. Now they hated her even more for getting their wonderful 'Jake' hurt. In their eyes she could never do anything right, she was Leah, Leah whose a bitch, a bitch to everything and everyone. Even when she was unintentionally hurtful to Emily, she was the one who they hated and were not sympathetic too, despite what Emily had done to her! Leah let out a frustrated breath and her dripping wet fingers curled into a tight fist.

She did not care anymore. If they wanted to hate her more, blame her for this, she didn't care. All she has to know is that, she never asked him to save her and to be honest she had nothing to be sorry for despite the fact it is him sitting there getting his bones recracked by fang rather than her. She felt a shiver run down her spine as she remembered hearing him cry in pain, as Cullen went to work. A piercing howl of pain that made the whole pack whince when they were waiting outside the Black's household a few hours ago.

She couldn't stand to be there knowing that they all thought her stupid move put him there, that he was in pain instead of her. So she ran, like a coward, she ran to get her mind clear and focused, she just ran. But now she's back and it's beginning to feel like a nightmare.

She was slightly angry, Leah's anger gave her confidence, and she felt her long legs suddenly pound the ground in short quick strides, with one fist, she knocked the door impatiently, although she wasn't. The person to answer the door was something unexpected to Leah as her hard face softened just like every Childs does when they see their mother.

"Oh, Leah, darling, where have you been?" Sue's voice changing from worry to frustration towards the end of the sentence. She didn't wait for Leah's response as she pulled her into a hug. Her warm breath ticking Leah's neck as she spoke.

"Oh, Leah, your soaked right through, I've been worried, but Sam reassured me that you just need to be on your own." Leah's eyes went cold and empty at the sound of his name, just as Sue pulled back to look at her daughters face, she sighed heavily, pulling the strands of Leah's wet hair that stuck on her face behind her ear.

"Jacob's being induced heavy doses of morphine but he's still awake." Sue whispered to her daughter whose face was still in her hands. Leah blinked slowly as if sleep was taking over. Jacob's being given heavy doses of morphine? Was he in that much pain?

"Leah, dear, it wasn't your fault." Sue attempted to reassure Leah who she thought needed reassurance.

"I know that." Leah said too quickly harshness in her tone. She was sure everyone heard her, wolf or non-wolf. She didn't look her mother in the eye afraid to see the hurt in them as she walked around her into the bright living room. Fifthteen wolves and eight humans turned to face the drenched Leah Clearwater. She didn't face their faces but she could feel their eyes boring into the side of her face. Leah kept her eyes on the walk in front of her that ultimately reached Jacob Black's room. She heard the house's front door close and her mother moved to stand behind her. However, someone calling her name made her turn her head catching everyone's face. They were all cramped into the Black's medium sized living room. Being there not enough seats, some guys sat on the floor, everyone looked tired, after the newborn fight it was surprising there eyes looked alert, a possible cause from the fact there was something new to look at. Her eye rested on her brother Seth's who gave her a slight smile.

She felt her heart warm a little. The voice was heard again as someone spoke her name. Her brown eyes rested on Rachel who was standing in front of Paul, her imprint.

"Leah, you're soaked." Rachel's voice sounded regretful. For the first time in a couple of hours she looked herself over, every inch of her clothing and skin was inked with rainwater. Her head heavily pulled its self to meet Rachel's.

Rachel's hair had a shine and straightness to it. Leah's right-hand pulled its self up to touch her hair lightly. Nothing but a wet, tangled mess. Rachel was in tight skinny jeans and a baggy black top. Leah felt a fluid of slight pain pool into her mouth. She used to look like that…at some point of her life that seemed far-gone now. Rachel sighed and walked over to Leah, taking her easily by the hand. The two hasn't spoken probably for a few years now, since her and her twin sister left to finish high school at a boarding school in the city of Washington D.C, and then going on with their lives in college all the way in Ohio. Leaving everything they ever had known behind. No one blamed them for their distant relationship, they found it hard after their Mother died, and they no longer could be here. Nevertheless, Leah found it rather selfish of them leaving their only brother to care for their disabled father. She had rage for Rachel and Rebecca for losing contact with her; they didn't care for her or their tribe. But after Leah's father passed, she understood completely of their need to get away, the lack of completeness that filled the air all of the sudden, the need to go out and find that completeness.

"I must have something for you in here somewhere?" Rachel seemed to breathe, as she left Leah and her hand at the doorway of her room and crouched over at her drawer. Leah's eye searched the room, it reeked of Paul. It was plain. White walls and basic furniture. Rachel must have done it over at some point after her return, because she remembered her having light beige and pink walls. Her, Rachel, Rebecca and Emily when she came over with her mum form the Makah reservoir, were once the Q girls. Leah felt the corners of her mouth tug slight but they didn't form the smile her lips longed too. Q stood for Quileute. It had once felt like they spent every waking moment together. But now….now its was just a mere "Hey Rachel" "Hey Leah" between the two since her return.

"You're still a size ten right?" Rachel turned her head back to Leah from her position on the floor.

"Twelve" Leah stated dryly. Rachel eyebrows fell slightly to form a frown, and an "Oh" escaped her mouth. Leah pretended she didn't hear it. Everything changed since she phased everything just got bigger. Her breast got bigger, her ass was bigger, her thighs thick. Her whole wardrobe had to be thrown out, everything had to go, nothing fit her anymore.

"I've found something." Rachel called out, getting up from the fall, she dropped the clothing on her bed, picking each them out and examining them.

"Not the best of clothing but it'll do." Did she not hate me? Or didn't Paul or anyone else fill her in on what happened. Leah found herself asking numerous questions in her head as she looked at the sister of the boy whose death ticket nearly came up.

"Leah, you better get out those wet clothes." Rachel stated matter of factly. Leah's eyebrow arched a little, she had forgotten why she had liked Rachel in the first place. She was the kind of girl who did not take any bullshit from anyone, like Leah herself. Rachel moved over to the far side of her room, fixing her beauty equipment on her desk that gave her the grace of having her back to Leah. As Leah got changed, her mind was at ease despite where she was.

Rachel felt the need lately to re build the relationships she once had, seeing as she'll be spending a long time, if not forever on the Res. She loved what she once had and regretted it every time when she thought of home. That she never bothered to keep in contact with friends that once swore to be friends forever. But she thought it be better that way, to have no attachment apart from the necessary. 'It's a great shame.' she could hear her Mum saying if she was here, and it was, a great shame she had thought that way, a great one indeed. Rebecca had been successful in finding her completeness else where but Rachel failed. Despite finding friends and few intimate relations nothing ever felt complete. And for a couple of months before coming back to the Res she felt the sudden urge to return home, and when she came home she found Paul, and now she feels somewhat complete. But she needs friends, girl friends. People who she can talk girl-ly stuff to, despite the fact she was not all that girl-ly. She had Emily again but she was more of Rebecca's friend. Whereas she and Leah got on like a house on fire, her dad had once put it. She wondered if Leah felt the same, being the only girl in the pack and since what happened with her and Emily.

"Must have been pretty scary what happened out there today." Rachel said fiddling with the cord of her hair dryer. Leah's heart skipped a heartbeat, was she referring to the incident? Leah hesitated to answer, standing up from the bed to pull the leggings she was given to her waist.

"Y'know, with crazed vampires and blood, and that." Rachel added quickly. Leah blinked. Was Rachel trying to make conversation…with her…after all this time?

"Not really…" Leah said slipping on the grey oversized t-shirt. "But we're wolves so I guess it comes with the package y'know, to be fearless of our enemy." Rachel turned around sensing Leah was dressed.

"And cockiness?" Rachel's asked. Leah plumped lips pulled into a small smile that did not reach her eyes.

"No, that's just Paul, cockiest bastard of them all." Leah knew Paul probably heard her comment, but she didn't care. For the first time in along time, she felt the emotion of hope. Rachel smiled back despite the fact Leah had just bad mouthed her imprint. The two of them stood smiling thinking about Paul, Leah thinking her was so fucking annoying, and Rachel thinking what he'll say to her later about hearing what Leah had just said, which she was positive he had heard.

The atmosphere was short lived as Jacob gave a loud groan that penetrated every wall in the house. Leah half-hearted smile faded into a thin line. Rachel winced to the pain her baby brother felt. It was heartbreaking seeing her brother like that, her brother scream in pain to a vampire re-break all his wrongly healed bones in his body. She had earlier locked herself in the bathroom, crying, as if the door will shield her ears from Jake's cries. Rachel's eyes settled on Leah whose face was hard to read.

"You better go talk to him, before he passes out again." Rachel whispered. What made Rachel think Leah would want to talk to Jacob? The question rang through Leah's mind. But she didn't question her about it, as she slipped passed her door walking until she stopped outside of Jacob Black's bedroom door. There was slight whiff of vampire that lingered in the air as well Jacobs sent. His door was white with a brass doorknob. The doorknob was cold as Leah turned it to enter the room. What will she say?

Why am I doing this? Leah asked herself. However, she pushed the door open anyways.

"Bella?" Leah heard a croaky voice call. Bella? Jacob was waiting for Bella. Leah felt a sense of disbelief wash over her. Dumb sixteen year old boy. Guess some sense was still missing from his deluded mind… Even after he had been severely injured, his mind was still focused on Bella Swan. Who was the bearer of danger and unhappiness to all, even though she had no knowledge what so ever she was doing it. If it wasn't for her and that stupid red head vamp that was after her, Leah and Seth would not of have had to phase. And that goes for the seven other young wolves that had phased due to this ridiculous newborn war they had to prepare for, that trigged it off for them. If it wasn't for her they wouldn't have to be gathered here tonight at the Black's, and she wouldn't have to this stupid apology that every one expected her to do, and most importantly, Jacob wouldn't have to be in this state. Why he was calling her name was oblivious to Leah. Leah's body became visible to Jacob as she closed the door behind her.

"Oh, it's you" Jacob said disappointed moving his head to look out the window. Leah irritably rolled her eyes, moving to stand in front of Jacob's bed, facing his bandaged torso, right leg and left arm. He had beads of sweat by his hairline, and he looked slightly disoriented and tired. If guilt could be an aroma Leah definitely will be emitting high doses of it. She tried to compose her face, not to give away her pain of seeing him lie there like that. Her arms were crossed below her breast, the weight of her body shifted to her right leg.

"Y'know you should stop excepting Bella Swan to turn up. Her love leech probably won't let her come over, seeing as there's twenty uncontrolling wolves in your living room." Leah stated simply. Jacob head turned to look at Leah with a bored look on his face.

"She'll come." He said. The words spoken either to Leah or to reassure himself was not clear. Leah shrugged, the word "Whatever." leaving her mouth. Leah didn't know what so say to the broken limbed boy in front of her. Did she just come straight out with it? Or imbedded it while in conversation. Ha. Conversation? If it was not Sam or Paul she was angry with it was Jacob. The only time the pair was talking was when explicit language was involved and high-pitched volumes of voices. "Look." Leah began eager to get this over and done with.

"Jacob Black. Were not the best of friends. You hate me and I hate you more. I never asked you to 'be my saviour', I can handle my shit on my own. I'm sorry for the fact you got hurt, really badly, and I'm sorry it's not me laying there instead of you. But I guess will all learned a lesson here today." Not to mess with weak little girls like Bella Swan that got us all into this mess. Leah added in her head. The apology may have not been kind but it definitely was Leah Clearwater, and everything they were expecting.

Jacob, with his good arm, pushed himself up lightly so he was sitting up. His jaw clamped down on his back teeth from the pain. Leah winced a little from the site. Jacob's face softened from relief and his eyebrow shot up remembering Leah's words. A cold laugh escaped his lips, his chest hurt from the reaction but he didn't show it. Is this girl serious? Jacob found himself asking.

To him Leah was just about the craziest…

Leah looked Jacob dead on. He was laughing? And it was a fucking cold one too?

To Leah he was just about the craziest…

"Wow, I mean just wow. Y'know you're just about right too, y'know, we all did just learn a lesson today. A, how Leah Clearwater apologies, lesson." Jacob laughed some more, it was so icy that if your tongue was exposed it probably would ice too.

"I stick my ass on the line to save you and this how you fucking repay me?" Whenever he and Leah fought, the thoughts that went on in Jacob mind was one of two things. One, Leah Clearwater was a bitch and two, what the fuck did Sam see in her? Right now, he was thinking of number two. Even though Leah was one of the prettiest girls on the Res and at one point of Jacobs life he had a mad crush on her but her bitchiness just about cancelled that 's arm dropped.

"I never asked your Bella-kissing-ass to save me, do you recall that in your messed up rapist mind." Jacob's left eyebrow rose from the word rapist. Rapist?

"What shit are you talking about now?" Jacob asked. He never ever wanted to bad mouth to a girl and like his mum had once said 'treat every girl how you'd want your sister to be treated' he pretty much tried to keep that promise, but Leah, Leah just brought out the worst in people. Knowing exactly what he talking about Leah continued their rant.

"Yeah, rapist…" Even though Leah hated Bella Swan, she did feel somewhat proud that she had punched Jacob after that ridiculous kiss he had given her.

"You don't just go round invading girls mouths, Black, and not except to be called a rapist." Jacob's mouth could not help but hang a little.

"I'm not a rapist, she wanted it, she just didn't know yet…she loves me, she admitted it before the fight." Why was he explaining himself to Leah? Her brain does not comprehend love. "She wanted it? She just didn't know it yet?" Leah broke out into harsh laugh.

"Yeah, of course she did. Spoken like a true rapist, Black, a true rapist." The corners of Jacobs mouth twitched a little, but the frustration he felt override the sensation to laugh. His body was beginning to grow frustrated and raged causing his mending ribs and bones to ache. Leah practically put him here now she was doing it all over again. What was I thinking of saving her? She's crazy, she is the definition of crazy in a dictionary. She is She's… Jacob sighed, tired. The sudden pound of his heart beating fast made his vision go cloudy. I am not going to pass out again. Jacob's fist tightened and Leah could see the veins in his hand bulging from his good hand, the discomfort Jacob is felling written all over his face.

What the hell was I thinking having a fight with Jacob in his condition? Leah thought.

"Jacob?" She called softly, worry was thickly wrapped around his name as it left her mouth. Jacobs's eyes narrowed and his face was shiny and flushed. Leah never sounded worried. Oh, Fuck, I'm gonna pass out again. Jacob thought. Leah spotted the icy looking bowl that had a handkerchief hanging out of it. Her long legs walked over Jacob's carpeted flooring to the handkerchief. She dipped it in the icy water and dabbed Jacobs's forehead. Jacob eyes shut slowly as he passed out.

"I'm sorry." Leah breathed.

Author's Note: Hey this is my first ever authors note. Whooo! I've done it, written the first ever chapter to my first ever story. Yay! Hope you guys enjoyed it. I'm sorry for any mistakes, I don't have a beta and I got pretty bored checking it :P

If you're reading this and do some beta'ing and would like to help me with this please PM me! Here is a few references for the story just so when you see it doesn't confuse you: its being split into the four seasons and each season will have chapters to it and if you noticed this, this one begins with 'autumn'. Hopefully I've cleared that up. Ermm…what else did I need to clear up? Well I can't remember so I guess all is left to do is to tell you guys to review please, your opinion will be valued.

Many kisses x

KadeeX