Hi guys, I am back with another one shot. I just want to let you know that this story is NOT related to 'learning to trust' otherwise the timeline wouldn't make sense so if you have read that story, this did not happen…it's just another idea. But on the other hand, this may have been mentioned in an early chapter of 'secrets of pain' but I can't quite remember.

This story doesn't contain a lot of talking btw; just Alice explain stuff

Disclaimer: I do not own twilight.

Alice's POV

Jasper and I had joined the Cullen's a whole month a go now and to put things simply…Jasper wasn't doing too well. He refused to leave my side under any circumstance in fear that the family would turn on us. He would guard the bathroom door whenever I used the shower, he would pull me behind him whenever any of our siblings got near and he always stayed closed when we were hunting which was a problem.

You see, being a vampire, hunting has to be done carefully because that's when our animal instincts kick in and we could possibly get aggressive. I guess that really isn't a problem for most of us because I had learned to be more human and the rest of the Cullen's were born into it but Jasper knew that if he was the one hunting and he was too close to another vampire, even me, he could hurt one of us. It wouldn't be his fault; it was just instinct but the reason why that was a problem was because Jasper didn't want to risk hurting me but still wanted to stay close and the only solution there is; is to follow me but not hunt. Jasper wasn't drinking as often as he should. His eyes were darker than the rest of us due to hunger but no matter how often I tried, I couldn't get him to drink much.

The only way I could help him with this is if I make him less reliant on me. Once he learns that this family is not a danger, then he won't need to stay by my side 24/7. In short, I needed to take control.

So the following week, I had tried to encourage him to interact with his brothers but he just looked at me horrified as if I had left him vulnerable in a dark and scary forest by himself. When that hadn't worked, I made him stay at home on my next hunting trip with Rose and Esme while Carlisle kept an eye on Jasper to make sure that he didn't follow behind me. He just went to our room and waited for me to return home.

When I did, I had felt terrible for leaving him. He was shaking with fear as he sat on our bed with his knees pulled up to his chest. I had never seen him look so afraid. He didn't even seem to notice my presence until I joined him on the bed and pulled him close to me.

I couldn't leave his side again.

I just wouldn't be able to bare it.

Within the next month, I had settled with the idea of just Jazz and I hunting on our own. I would kill first and once I was done, he would kill, too, but I would have to stay within his sight while keep my distance at the same time to stop him from getting anxious.

Carlisle had soon suggested bringing somebody else along so that Jasper would get used to other vampires being around him. When we had tried this, Jasper appeared to be even more cautious than he had been before as he was now making sure one of the others weren't about to steal his kill.

I knew that Rosalie, Edward and even Emmett were growing a little frustrated with Jasper's behavior but Carlisle and Esme were very patient people and I had to be patient for my Jazz. Carlisle encouraged our siblings to interact with Jasper; bond with him but unfortunately, Jasper was too distant and closed off with everybody. I was the only one he trusted yet he still wouldn't believe me when I assured him that they wouldn't hurt him.

After another couple of months, things seemed to get a little better. Jasper, being an empath, knew that his behavior was upsetting the family and worrying me and he would do anything to feel my happiness. He started to back off a little; giving me my own space and a chance to bond with my siblings as well but he only used his alone time stuck in our room, sitting on the bed and waiting for me. I guess it's one step at a time right?

Wrong.

Things got worse.

Well, I guess they had to. Things have to get worse before they get better.

Jasper noticed that I became happier when he wasn't constantly being overprotective so he must have started taking it the wrong way. Not only did Jasper back off to let me spend some time with my family but he also seemed to think that it was a good idea to stop hunting with me. Normally, I would be okay with that because it meant that he would go with someone else but I was his only hunting partner and he would not go alone.

He was now refusing to hunt all together.

It had started off to make me happy to distance himself from me but now he was doing it out of depression because he was away from me. That's when I finally realised that protecting me wasn't the only reason he couldn't leave my side. He wasn't himself when he was alone; he was depressed, lonely, anxious, scared.

He thought that I wanted him to stop being near me rather than just becoming less reliant but then again, Jasper almost always took things the wrong way after being a very sensitive person. This was my fault; I should have been expecting this.

It was another two weeks when Carlisle finally intervened. Jasper was showing signs of weakness; his focused attention became unfocused, he didn't seem to notice his surroundings when he would usually note every detail of the rooms he was in. Even his vampire abilities were starting to weaken; he wasn't as fast or as strong as he should be and his sight, sound and smell were becoming more like a human's rather than as good as a vampire. I was sure that he was even losing his ability to manipulate emotions.

We all began to worry.

Although Jasper feared Carlisle since he viewed him as a leader of the coven and Jasper hasn't exactly got a good history with leaders, it didn't stop Carlisle from taking him out hunting. He even had to kill for Jasper but when he brought the dead animal to his side, Jasper refused to drink; he just turned his head away.

We were all absolutely clueless; well, there was a suggestion of human blood because we all knew that even if he tried, Jasper wouldn't be able to resist but then Carlisle dismissed the idea because it would only torture Jasper after he realises what happened but if things get too bad, it would be the only other option.

No matter how much persuading we all did, nothing helped. It was when Jasper collapsed down the stairs when we began to lose hope. We had all ran to him, trying to figure out what was going on. Vampires weren't the kind that could just fall out of consciousness but after being starved for so long, we lose energy until we eventually lose the strength to get up; as if we are just souls stuck in a lifeless body.

And now it was happening to Jasper.

Emmett had carried him back into our room and laid him in our bed. If Jasper had any energy left, he would have used it to freak out at Emmett's touch but he probably didn't even realise what was happening.

The following night, the boys had gone out hunting to bring back some blood in some containers. Now that Jasper was this weak, we just needed to make him swallow it but the problem was, when he does strengthen up after consuming blood, it was bound to happen again as he would refuse to drink anymore.

"Don't do this to me, Jazz. I need you. You are the most important thing in my life. If anything happens to you, I don't know what I would do. I never wanted you to do this to yourself, baby. I didn't want you to stop being near me. I love you" I whispered to him.

I had spent the whole night laying with Jasper, stroking his hair, speaking gently to him; anything that will make him drink again. His eyes were open slightly but I could tell that he was trying to fight the urge to shut them.

I had turned around when I heard a knock on the door which revealed to be Carlisle. Jasper had me so worried that even I appeared to be losing my abilities. I hadn't even heard him or seen him approach.

He had placed a tube down Jasper's throat which the animal blood went through and into his system. I continued to stroke his hair and say soothing words to him to keep him calm although he was still too weak to get himself worked up.

All that was left to do now was wait.

Within the next few hours, Jasper was already moving around our bedroom again but he avoided any other room or any other vampire for that matter. After remembering the words I told him while comforting him many hours before, Jasper finally realised that I did, in fact, want him to stay close to me. He kept nuzzling his nose into my neck with the occasional lick or suck but he hadn't said anything…unless purring counts.

Although he had been fed, it wasn't enough to last him the next few weeks so a few days later, Carlisle had managed to convince him to go hunting after a long talk so we both went together and he finally caught something! A deer to be specific.

I was happy for him and when Jasper felt my emotions, I got a vision.

It was one of him hunting with both of Emmett and Edward. They were all having fun, challenging bears and Jasper looked happy.

Feeling my happy emotions must have made Jasper more determined to do what it takes to keep me feeling that way which involves keeping himself healthy; well, healthy for a vampire. Jasper was going to not only start hunting again but also do it with his brothers within time.

I only needed to wait a little longer

I know that S Meyers view of vampires is that even if they haven't consumed blood in so long, nothing happens, I believe it makes much more sense ff they fall weak because blood is like their source of energy so the blood in their body has to go somewhere, right?

Would you like me to turn this into a two-shot with the second chapter being the 'long talk' Carlisle had with Jasper to get him to go hunting?

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