Have You Ever?
(Nakago/Soi fic)
Disclaimer: I don't own Fushigi Yuugi and the song.
Author's Notes: Don't forget to review after reading. This is my first fic.
Have you ever
loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed
something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried
to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever,
have you ever
I still couldn't believe that for all I have gone through, I would love someone more than anything in this world…more than my destiny…more than myself. I love you so much…so much that I never think of myself. All I know is that I love you. I don't care if you don't love me back. As long as I need you, I am satisfied with my life.
I knew that you would never understand my feelings for you. For everytime I wanted to confess, I always find you leaving me. You will never listen to me. Sometimes, I think that you never really know me. Even though we shared many nights, you won't bother to know me.
Have you ever
been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them
understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd
give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched
for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
I have almost done the things I thought that would change your heart. I have given my body to your enemy to drain his ki. I have killed many innocent people to please you. And I have come to the point that I almost give you up to Lady Yui. I know that you never loved her. I know that these things can get me to your heart. I wanted to believe those things. I wanted to hold those thoughts as if they are real. I wanted to hold on.
Have you ever
found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just
about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the
one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give
their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed
that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when
they will care
When did I begin to love you? It was when we met seven years ago. That very first day I laid my eyes on you…that I have found you. You are the reason why I am still here. I endured the pain of being a prostitute because I knew that someday a man named Nakago would free me. Until now, that childish dream doesn't come to reality even though you're here…because you never loved me. But then, I won't stop dreaming. I won't stop believing that you cared for me. I won't stop waiting. I won't stop until my body and soul can feel you.
What do I
gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to
your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta
get you into my world
'Coz baby I can't sleep
But how long will I wait? I must have the courage to tell you one last time that I love you…to know if I still have the chance. Then you refuse me. You refuse my love. My tears are threatening to spill. No, I won't cry. It is all my fault. It is not the right time to talk about those things with you. Maybe after this war against Konan, I can ask you about that again.
But I know I can't have that chance. My mind is telling me that I won't have that chance. No, I still believe. I must believe for us. I must live in this illusion to keep myself breathing. Because I know that you are all I breathe for.
Have you ever
loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed
something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried
to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever,
have you ever
Just as I thought I would never see the day that I confess again my love for you. Thank you, Nakago. I'm very happy that I met and love you…for keeping me on believing. Then I see something on your face. You're sad…shocked. You're not acting the way you told me that you never loved me. But my body and soul cannot feel you. I cannot believe anymore.