Soulmates

Disclaimer: I do not own NCIS, things would be different if I did.

Spoilers: Episodes between Witness (2x14) and SWAK (2x22), with meantion of Bete Noire (1x16) and Reveille (1x23). Turns into AU

I look back now, after so many years and I still have those four questions running through my mind.

What is a soul mate?

What does fate have to do with finding your soul mate?

Can they be the last person you expect?

Can it be your enemy?

Those questions allowed me to begin my life, the life I live with my husband and soul mate. I have children and they are beautiful and vibrant and everything their father and I want them to be.

I look at my oldest child, my sweet daughter and I see her father in her. I see the gentle nature he held hidden till I came into his life. I see the determination and spirit he possesses still; I watch her come home with a report that she had been accepted as an NCIS Special Agent.

Her father laughs and tells her that she will be better than her mother, of which she takes offense to. I just laugh and tell her I want her to be, I want her to love life and save it at the same time.

I see my oldest son come home from his second year of college and announce he's going to become a doctor…just like his father. I tell him to choose a different field then his father did and he said he wants to do pediatrics…of which we all agree would be best.

My middle children, my two beautiful daughters are in high school and excelling at it too. They are light years beyond their classmates, or so their teachers say.

My youngest son is going to enter high school next year and I can only help console him since his best friend will not be joining him…he was recently killed in a car crash, he vows to become an NCIS agent and place bad guys away…as it was a man trying to flee a crime that drove his car into my son's best friend.

My youngest child, my youngest daughter who has just turned six is everything her father and I can hope for. Her favorite thing is to play cops and robbers with her father or bake cookies with me. She was our miracle…born late in life but I shall never regret having her.

Born deaf, she communicates with us in sign language and reads our lips, she knows all the languages we speak and can read any of them. Our little girl is precious and perfect, our light when we have none.

My husband, my wonderful and caring husband, who in the past twenty-one years of marriage has never raised a hand to me or raised his voice. I have never heard him yell, even when I yell, it's something I enjoy since I hear my sister-in-law and her husband fight all the time…it never ends with them despite their deep love. He is my world, once my enemy but always my soul mate.

Those last two questions have always stuck with me since I read them.

Can they be the last person you expect?

Yes, your soulmate can me the last person you expect. I never expected him to be my soul mate, especially after what he did to me but he was and I love him, I always will.

Can it be your enemy?

Oh yes, it can be your enemy. My soul mate was my enemy, the enemy of my entire NCIS family in fact. Nothing will ever make me stop loving my husband and soul mate.

As I read these questions again, I wonder if I ever made a mistake and I know I didn't. I never made the mistake of falling in love or having a child with my enemy. I never made a mistake to take my husband's last name or to marry him for life.

I know myself, I know who I am and I am Caitlin 'Kate' Alexandra Haswari…wife of Ari Haswari…ex-Mossad and my soulmate.