Can't ever let go
She's counted every day that passes. It's almost going to be 11 months. 11 months since Bella broke up with Alice. And even thought broken up Bella still kept a tight hold on Alice. She still had such a strong grip. Alice had to watch Bella be with mike about they had broken up. Having to be there for her even thought it was killing her to be so close to her only love. After him Bella went back to Alice.
They decided to try again but Alice didn't have a strong grip like Bella did. She couldn't hold on and Bella left once again. This time to Edward. He was so controlling and manipulative. To Bella he was what she deserved. Alice couldn't be there this time. It hurt too much to process every thought at once. She wanted Bella. Completely to herself. She wanted her to be hers and hers only not share her with nobody else. So they drifted apart but not completely. Bella could never let go of the tight grip she had on Alice. Alice tried so hard to lossen that grip. She tried to get close to jasper. But that was just a big joke.
She knew her heart could love no one but Bella. Bella was her everything and she always kept that grip. She kept coming back to Alice every few days to reinsure she had that grip. Every time Alice felt herself coming free Bella would just come back and pull her back. Alice wanted Bella so bad it hurt her to the point where she'd do anything for it. But she had to be strong. Alice knew Bella wouldn't leave Edward even if she begged her to and every time she came back to tighten the grip it made it worse. She'd come back with words to lure Alice back to her. It got so bad Alice wanted her gone all together. But she knew Bella would never let that grip go.
She'd always have that tight grip on Alice no matter what. It's gotten so bad that Alice is basically insane now. She want Bella but wants also to let go. The worst part is that she knows she can't ever let go.