This is just a nightmare, this is just a nightmare. A nightmare I'll wake up from soon.
I barely noticed the funeral ending. In my heart I would never be able to bring to myself that he's dead… no he's only sleeping right? He'll wake up soon and call me a bastard and what not… right? Oh, it's my turn to see him one last time… no he's asleep, he's asleep, he's only sleeping. I looked at him. He looks so serene and peacefully as if he's only sleeping. Which is exactly what he's doing, I thought.
….He's dead…..
No, shut up.
…..Can't you see that he's dead? That's he's gone...?
N̵̙̭̉̊̏̎̍͌̓͋̌̋̋̓o̴͓̘͗̒̓
….He's not coming back anymore….
Ñ̶͓̺̦̹̩̝̂̓̽͆̾̈́̕ö̸̢̨̻̭̮̣̤̦̪̞͕̫̜͎́̏̓̂̌́̈́͑̊́̅̆̂̕͝
…You'll never see him again…
S̸̠̭̗͊̈̐͗̈́̑̅̉͝h̸͎͉̉͌͊̒̑́̄̂̾̊̕ú̴̢̨̡̘̬̤̹̬̱̱̞̭͓̳̱t̶̻̣̦̻̭́͑̒̈́̄̐̌̚ͅ ̴̢̹͔͉̝̬̈́̊́̂̿̈́̈́̎̀̔̊̚͝ụ̵̳̬̠͈̜̠͇̙͇̭̱͑̇̍̌̋́̆̿̀̿̕͝p̷͕̝̩̹̻͒̐̒̓͠͝
..You weren't able to say goodbye..
S̸̛̱̪̭͖͔̭̳̦̰̺͕̱̄͂̂̀͊̓͂̿͘͝h̵̫̫̗̞͇̳̗̞̱̟̬̺̞͎̘̏̋͘͘ų̸̼̝̫̬̈́͒͋̋̒̔̾͘t̸̨̨̡̳͚̝̼̗̞̫̏ ̷̛̹̜̘͎̪̻̮͍̱̌̀̓̄͆̎͋̅̂ụ̶̗̜̦̭̊́p̴̢̢̙̆͋̎͐̽̎̎̉̑̎̎͆͘,̸̻̅̂̍̀̽̾͊͂̈̚ ̶̨̍s̶̯̰̩̰̝͍̹̩͉͔̞̫̆̈̓̾̾̓̾͋̄́̚ͅh̷̨̺͓̱̻̙͇̖͖͉̣̊͂͝ú̶̺̼͚͕̳̠̞̮͂͠t̶̡̡͖͖̦̗̩͚̙̟̩̟͎͒̄̔̉͋̂̃ ̸̧̨̨̰̗̳̰̖̺̱͚̹̋̌̍̂̅̽̐̈́́̉̓̾̚͠ǖ̷̫͈̥̝̗̣͖̝̬̺͙̓̊̀͜͝͝p̷̡̰̐͒̒̅͠,̶̝̰̗̱̗͐̽̽̽̍̋͗̈́̒̌̃̏̓͐̀ ̸̦̭͖̩̞̰̓̑̐̓̋ŝ̷̢̡̡̧̮̫̰́ḫ̵̨͕̙̖͚̄̚u̷̡̨̙̳̘̣̭̜͖̙͍̇͐t̴̡͚̥̭̺̗̫͕̜̫̮́̉̌ ̶͎̹̬̺̝̏̏͜͠ư̶̛̮̹̹̫͓͙͇̼̑̆̾̔͐̔͒̚p̸̢̡̼͕̱͆̍̌͗
.It was your fault.
S̷̡̡̥̗͍̩̻̦̳̮͕̅̽ţ̴̩̳̠̻̦̰͎̬̾̋́̏̈́̐̂̈́̀͌͘͝ͅơ̴̲̲͑̎̐̋͐̆̇̈̇͝͠ṕ̷̭̈́̍̾͝ ̸̛̠̝̺̓̄̽̌̓̏̎͋ḯ̶̦̥͕͎̖̩͎̍̌͌̓̽̔͂̋̕̕t̵̛̗͔̦̺̞̄͋̉͗̎̅̽́̈́͠.̴̹̿͋̏̋̆͘͠.̴͖̜̺̫̱̬̗̘̱̾͐̀͑̅̔̕͜.̵̢̭̼̩̞̺̹͇̥̳̳̰̑̉͌̍͛͗
Your fault alone
N̵͎̭̝͇͉̻̭͎̟̹̺̬͇̍̑ͅǫ̸͚͕͓͔̼̂͌̑̈́͆͝,̸̨̲̫͙̤͕͚̦͗͌͋̃̍́̃̆̚̚ ̵̢̼̭̼̫̃͂́͌͒̔̈́̂͠ͅͅṋ̸̢̣͚͈̜̘̻̻̫̰̙̥̝̀̄̂̒̄̋́̋́̎̽͆̕̚͝ơ̵͍̼͉̤̳̍̌͌̑̀͊̊̈́̽,̵̫̙̥͓͍̇̓͒̆͌͂͐̐͑̂͘ ̷̛̲̎̔̀̏̓̔͌̊̋̍͒͝͝͝n̶͚͖̤͕͉̯͆͑̑͋͒̏̿̑̓̾̚o̵̧̧̨̢͇̬̠͍̹̣̪͍̤̣̯͋̈̕,̷̼̻̠̪̫̗̱͇̰̯̭͐ͅ ̷̛̪̽͒̈́̾̉͆̃̈́̕n̶̪͖̻̱̬͑̓͆ő̴̬̺̻̪̳̗̯̟̞͍̳̼̔͆̈́̀
HE DIED THINKING HE WAS USELESS AND UNLOVED BECAUSE OF YOU
Ş̶̢̛̼̼͔͇̗͆̇̈́͑̔͆͘̚̕ͅH̵͚̤͛͒̎̚͠͠Ư̸̰͇͇͔̂̑̓̿̒̇̿̑̏͜Ť̸̡̢̝̘̺̹̖̪̗͛̽̄̋̔̃̕͝͝ ̸̨̢̨̟̭͚̱̱̮͕͈͔͈̊̈́͒͋́̾͠U̵͍͍̝̰̲͌͋̅́̾́̑̈̇̓̚͜P̴̣̻̹̲͎̝̘͉̯̬̜̦̖̱̂̀͑̊͑̑̽̀́̾̉̊͘̕!̶̢͇̳̖͉͇̹͉̰͐̏̅̓̿͛͝!̵̤͛͗̓̀́̅͝!̶̢̖̫̺̺̖͎͚̻̠̒̾͊̋͗̍͐̿͒̊͌̓̈́́́!̸̯̲̝̘̠̽̃͊͑̈́̌͊̅̉̐̎͆̎̓͠ͅ
"…ain…." A different voice called. Who is it? Ah… I can't remember.
"…pain..." I know that voice. I can't remember who.
"..Spain." My eyes widened. It can't be…
R̵̲͍̽o̷̥͉̔̉̄͐͗̒͌͒̕͠͝͠ḿ̸̜ä̶̧̘̰̼͈͔̬͖́̃̽͊͋̃̌̾̓̚͘n̴̗̭̠̱̭̏̀̎̃͊̾̑̋̄́̏̍͘͝͠o̴̧̨͈̭̲͍͈̠̬̳̅͝͝͠
I met him a long, long time ago. I had originally thought that he was a brat and had tried to trade him in for his brother.
Ṝ̴̞̖̘̯́̊o̴͈͒͑̔̍̏̈̆̆̌̂̄͊͊̚m̸͓̹̥̫̩̹̯̊̅̈́̈́͝͝͝ả̴̡̹̙͈̫̖̙̳̞̦̗͉̘̙̟̃̾ṅ̸̨̛̯͈̹̭̦̯̑͒̓̀̈́͗͒̇͛͜͠o̴̲͑͂̿͗̚͠
I protected him and fought for him. I did everything I could to keep him but still lost. It didn't matter though because in the end we found each other.
Romano
How could I ever forget that you died two weeks ago?
"Spain!" I opened my eyes and smiled in relief. Romano stood in front of me his trademark scowl plastered on his face and his arms folded on his chest.
"Roma…" He crashed on top of me as I pulled him into a tight embrace. He's alive. It really was just a nightmare. Tears flowed freely from my eyes as I buried my face in his chestnut hair.
"Wha- what the fuck do you think you're doing bastard?!" He tried to squirm his way out but I just tighten my arms around him more.
"I… I thought I lost you….." I choked out. "Huh? What are you talking about idiota?"
"I… had a nightmare…" Romano went silent as I said that.
"…Spain..."
"In that nightmare you… you died." I whispered interrupting him. More tears spilled from my cheeks.
"..Spain."
"But it was only just a nightmare," I murmured. "It wasn't real."
"Spain." Romano looked at me his tone completely changing.
"Spain… I'm sorry… this right now… this is only a dream."
-HEG