Okay guys, this is set on Wammy's era on Matt's PV, alright? You already know that if I owned any anime I write about there would be gay couples about everyone with everyone and so (: thanks for reading and enjoy!
Near wasn't someone you could describe with words.
quiet
He wasn't someone who would openly let you know what he was thinking.
introverted
He wouldn't smile, or frown, letting you know how he was feeling.
lonely
For some, this could make him annoying, for me, this made him interesting.
absent
I'm not supposed to stare at him and notice the little things he does, actually, I should hate him, but I can't.
observant
Nobody sees it but… I can tell how words hurt him… I can see how his gaze turns absent and eerie when they insult him.
gentle
He never insults back, but, I know how much those words get him. I hear him cry when I sit at his door, every night, not sure if I should come in or not.
hider
And I never do…
loveless
Sometimes, I think, being alone and crying everything out is the medicine for a broken heart.
hurt
But… maybe it doesn't work that way… not with Near.
silent
My feelings for him are a secret, I can't tell him because I can't let him believe I might be bluffing.
mistrustful
And I wouldn't forgive myself if I ever got to hurt him.
imaginative
He'd lock himself more in his own world. He would be lonelier, and I can't let that happen.
secret
Maybe one day I'll be able to tell him, and protect him from everyone else; maybe… kiss him.
But, for now, Near is my secret.