Chapter 1 Change Has Come
I use to be a little girl I had hopes and dreams that I wanted to be a reality, place and people I wanted to go to and meet a life I wanted to live. So much in my life has changed since that time since that innocence I know I'll never have that back I'll never have that back. That's okay though I don't regret a day an hour of my life. Do I wish my pain wasn't so great? That I didn't know what it meant to lose yourself in anger at the world and its cruelty? Sometimes. But I know that had I never been there in that darkness had I never seen that pain I wouldn't have wanted to be more do more. I wouldn't have cared enough to strive to change to path of my life to fight for more.
I've never cared about power never wanted it for more than to make sure no one had it over me.
I've never cared about time never paid more attention to its passing then to assure that I could blend in to the new modern day.
Money meant nothing more to me then something I saved so that I need not worry about wanting for anything in a time where it was everything.
Sex was simply an act for me never mattering so long as the pleasure was achieved.
So when the day came when I met my beautiful girl. When I discovered my other half and my need to give her everything it shocked me to discover my thankfulness for all these thing. Power that allowed me to protect her. Time that brought me to her. Money that allowed me to cater to her more eccentric qualities. Sex that felt better than ever before.
She Completed Me my pixie angel.
My love. My Beginning.
Before her I walked a path of death.
She is my life.
Coming to Forks wasn't a big decision for me. Being alone and having no real responsibilities aside from keeping my-self alive meant that anytime I wanted to go somewhere and do anything there was nothing stopping me but the time it would take to pack my belonging and go.
I decided to have my own home built since there were specific things that I needed in a home that know of the houses in Forks could provide. Calling ahead and having a company get started on the house was also relatively easy. The plane ride over from New York was not particularly strenuous. The same could be said about putting the finishing touches on everything once I finally got to my new almost cabin like residence (though considerably bigger than your average cabin). So why was it that right after finishing the décor I felt as if I had just as a human would say 'run a marathon'. I was tired a bone deep feeling of being exhausted. Yet I was also extremely excited a feeling that I was not used to in the least.
Tomorrow would be a new day. I could tell.
Not in the sense that that the sun would rise again but in the sense that something was about to change. Something was coming and it was going to affect my once boring life in was that I would be feeling throughout centuries to come.
What? I don't know.
Why? Haven't the faintest clues.
But when? I could feel that. Tomorrow my first day at yet another High School. It would happen then, and it would be earth shattering. OOOOOOORRRRR, I'm being extremely Dramatic and it would simply be utterly life altering in such way that my past will seem worth it and my future will seem set in stone so dense that not even fate will be able to change the outcome.
But no shattering earth.
That's so fucking dramatic of me.
Please note the Sarcasm.